------------ February 2013 - “An indescribable pain in an empty mind” ------------ Occasionally they would see if I would wake up on my own. When they brought me round for these brief terrifying moments, I had no memory of who I was. Tears stream down my face and I cant understand why? I think its knowing what it feels like to truly be lost. Then one day they woke me. I didnt move. My nerves had been stripped and my muscles had severely wasted. A war had been won but many battles were to come. ------------ July 2013 - Weeks turn to months ------------ I dropped almost 140lbs in Intensive Care and the High Dependency Unit and my feet were damaged beyond repair. Looking back, I was not in a sound mind then to make important decisions about full amputation so Im glad I kept them and tried an alternative method to try to repair them. ------------ January 2014 - A year in bandages ------------ I have had more than 19 hours of operations now. My toes have been amputated and they have taken muscle from each of my thighs to pad the front of my feet. The first time I sat up: it took months of work for me to just get to this stage. I could barely sit up under my own steam so it was a milestone for me. I never knew how tough it was all going to be. ------------ February 2014 ------------ Ive lost everything and have been lying in bed for months, so there is no tone, no strength, no posture. But I can kneel! I start pushing boundaries on my own, trying to do exercises or kneeling and walking around the bed (I cant). Almost every time I fall over and risk getting caught. Most days I remain positive about my situation, happy to try and work towards walking on my own two feet. But then I really started to ponder… I concentrated on the shape of my feet and the terrible pain they were giving me. To avoid more intense pain, I chose to have my legs amputated. That day was Monday February 24th 2014 – the start of a new chapter in my life. This is my story. Meningitis nearly killed me, but Id still rather it happen to me than an innocent child. Please support the work of Meningitis Now, read more and join the fight> mnow.co.uk/JacobsFight
Posted on: Wed, 30 Jul 2014 12:10:01 +0000
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