#1177 female from ghaziabad,UP I had been a gawky simple innocent in my entire school life. After class 12 I came to close a guy through unknown sms. without seeing his pic just after 3 or 4days chat I got engaged with him. In dose days I was dat kinda dumb :D anyways after while I got admission in an engineering college and in the mean time I already checked his pic and started repenting how did I fall into him. so inevitably I dumped him after having 2 months relationship. Honestly the boy got upset and tried a lot to get me back. I cared a fig then. after 2-3 months I again fall into a wrong guy and maybe the most psycho person i ever came across. That was most saddest part and horrible part of my life and too some extent I deserve dose pain. Becoz I hadnt learnt any lesson 4m my previous case. To get rid of him I seek help from one of my senior. My ex was vigorous and used to gave me threatening. He helped me a lot at dat tym. Without his support I would never get away from dat situation. After dat guess what le helping senior became my BF. Without knowing the person insight I said him yes. We had several rough patch. We two r completely different. He is very much caring loving and loves me beyond my imagination and more dan I do. But he has other side too,very much insecure,impulsive and dependable on me totally. Despite of being a senior I have to suggest him in all matters be its placement or anything. sometyms I become tired and it seems I am playing the overpowering bfs role where he merely takes any decision and does blunder all tym. I havnt any respect 4 him. In dis year I made a horrible blunder,I got close to one of my classmate and eventually we had make out. Once I told my bf and confessed him. But dat tym he got furious he almost turned mad hearing dat bitter truth. Seeing him in such rage I totally flipped my statement and I lied dat I was testing him whether our love is true or nt blah blah. He believed dat bogus. Now problem is dat I cant forgive myself. Dat lie has ruined my life. later dat incident we had many ugly spats too. Dere I had no fault. Now all have been settled he got a good job even I got placed. But truth is I didnt forgive myself and I have been emptied. I have no flngs towards anyone. having so many bfs one after another it seems I have no attraction towards anything. I have a thought to breaking up wid him. but havnt any courage to face d post brkup phase.I am just too confused.Life has become hell to me. Admin - bachpan se hi shauk raha h madam ko chutiyapa karne ka :v :p xD :p ;)
Posted on: Wed, 23 Jul 2014 18:16:41 +0000
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