#12263 - I’ve grown to be known as quite the happy person these past 6-8 months, so much so that you could never tell that I had a very suicidal past and a tumultuous childhood. Because of my confidence, I’ve gotten quite ambitious, which is amazing to me. But also, That’s why there are times, when life gets too hectic and people are stressing me out, that I feel myself having brief periods of relapse… Like this weekend. Naturally, I wouldn’t say anything about it to my peers, because let’s be honest, no one wants to be around a sour depressed party pooper. But the one weekend I reach out to my friends for companionship (I’m not mentioning anything about my relapse of course), they’re all too busy to be around. And that’s fine, it’s expected at this age. But sometimes I wonder: we remind ourselves to “live life to the fullest” and “treat those around you close because you’ll never know when you see them again”. If I was still the suicidal version of myself of yonder, they might never see me again. But lucky for everyone, and even myself, I think a good nap will help me through things. Just sometimes… I wonder. I just wonder. If only people knew, would they not aggravate me as much? Would they be more kind? And in my professional life, Would my competition not use such petty tactics to get ahead, knowing that a life could be risked in the process? I just wonder.
Posted on: Tue, 20 Jan 2015 05:55:51 +0000
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