**2014** I wasnt going too but I am... 2014 was and is an amazing year of self examination of who I was and am as an individual. I made a ton of bold moves this year. Some that I didnt understand but let me tell you.( God knew. ) I was living in Jennys little world. Where everyone was to blame but myself for mistakes damn well I knew were mine. I was selfish- all about me-unforgiving-not humble-just a bad seed..and this year God made me give it all away. Words cannot express how grateful I am for his presence in my life. I tried to get into religion feeling like I needed it to find him. To obey him. But once I was introduced through my search for the freedom and grace in which he gives us all I knew that through my works I could feel nothing more than drained. Because it has already been done for me. I left everything I had because he was ready to strip me down bare and take out my little demons which held me back from becoming who I am working to be. Now I still have a lot of work..but I have never felt so relieved in my life. I dont stress because I know no matter what He has my back. Always provides me with what I need!! I swear he NEVER has failed me! never! Ive met so many amazing people this year. I accomplished my career goals. Ive literally did everything I planned out for this year. I have forgiven people that have let me down and have accepted that I cannot change anyone but myself. I have preached to people about him non stop. Ive spoken to people that I would of never thought. Im not religious- I dont recruit. I just tell them all about what he has done for me. He made a miracle out of me & he could do it for you too. 2014 has been nothing but great. Ive fallen Ive risen. One thing I value the most about 2014 has got to be that Ive stop caring what others think. Omg that was a burden lifted off of me. I am me. I try to be no one else but me. My walk is not like yours. But I pray you experience the beauty of it. My daughters are the icing to my year. They are my rock!. They keep going!. They are a reflection of who I am. And it is my primary focus to continue to rise to the top. And settle for nothing but all the great things in life because of them. This doesnt mean Im claiming to be perfect. Im just admitting that my ways got me no where. And once my pride was given up, all his ways worked with me... To God be the glory for my struggles. My brokenness.my happiness.my success. Just everything!!! 2014 thank you for the experience! But it is now coming close to start 2015.
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 22:59:49 +0000