#755 Believe it or not but this is my Seventh confession on this page. A quite long back one of my friends finished all the ways of our contacts(Fb, whtsapp, number). And the reason is yet unknown. Either his personal life or i annoyed him too much. Though i didnt ever disrespect him still he insulted me by his ill words and ignorance. He doesnt want me in his life but am unable to live without him. Am screwed up! I used to think Its cool, Time will heal up everything. Ill start with my college life meet new friends and move on. But unfortunately even today his every single #malicious #words #prick. Am still stuck to him, his memories, am unable to move. I have lost all hopes. How would i come out of this loneliness? They say get a man and be in relation. But how can i commit myself to one whom i dont feel for? How can i timepass with someone? Sometimes i literally feel to end up, give up, quit and #SUICIDE. I know its s not a sensible act. But then till when ill endure this pain? Its been approximate 2 years and i still stand there. I cant tolerate any more. I wana kill myself. Am wise i know its not the appropriate solution. But i fear what if someday am out of my senses and take a wrong step and committ suicide. What about my dear ones? I cant share all this with my parents coz they already have other problems in their life how can i keep my problem too in front of them. And when i tell this too my closest friends, they themselves get irritated and dont give a damn! All what they say is Sab thk hojayega. But when? I cant wait anymore. Idk q but inside i get intuitions that sooner is the time when ill end up writing a suicide note blaming none but definitely #myself my stupidity. I have got nuts. I can give up my everything for one who doesnt respect and value me at all. Am gradually being more and more depressed. I dont desire anything but just a contended life. Am dying inside. #PLEASE #HELP #ME. #PLEASE #GUIDE #ME.
Posted on: Wed, 01 Oct 2014 07:50:32 +0000
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