#764 16/07/2014 18:21:22 Hi all i cant tell u all my name but m 16 female n m from vijay nagar my confession is quite big bt pls read it only if u want just pls dont make fun of it its an humble request pls dont cmment anything foolish pls its an sincere req what might b a fun for u may hurt someone so 5 yrs back 16 october 2009 theres a school which organise diwali fate evrywhere i dint wanna go there bt my sisters fren askd me so i went there with bunch of people of my same colony one of my fren took part in a musical chair round n there was sme another guy whose frens were standing there dancing so i just said to one of my fren they r dancing here y dont they just participate in the dance cmpetition aftr the musical chairs one of the guy rocked the dance floor n he won n he looked into my eyes with that i showed u attitude i dint cared fr anything its just that i couldnt resist looking at him i dint realised what it was but i definately knew i was there just bcz of him i was just 11 i thought it might b a small crush aftr smetime i saw that guy again n a fren told me that he left the tution just 2 days bfr i joined i was almost like y me than one of my fren says do u knw he is a punjabi pandit n i m a girl who thinks couples are made in heaven n wen its meant to b god gives signs it made me think more evry time i used to come home frm tution i see him in the way n evry single tym he dont recognise me n i couldnt forget him evn ek baar to use dekhne me itna busy thi ki me almost girte girte bachi it was 1yr in the 2nd yr i told my best fren n that stupid guy may b told the guy i like everything i got a chance to talk to him but i was afraid that he wont like me he was the prince charming evry girl wanted him n i was just me just another girl my frens took him to my brothers reception party i had no clue i couldnt tlk to him again but i cnt evr frget that on that day i saw him looking at me for the first tym the guy i was cmpletely in love with had his eyes on me i cnt ever describe how spcial that feeling was fr me but i couldnt tlk to him there as well aftr that i tried my level best to get him so i started using fb i msgd him he said bhot dino baad yaad kia mjhe hws u baby n there i was on top of the world i started talking to hik i guess he thought i was desperate so he stopped tlking to me but the truth i was overwhelmed with the fact that he even remember me aftr smetime i found out he was with a girl he was with her he was in luv with her that was the tym i realised it wasnt just liking i was in luv with him so i troed not to think about him but each n every time i look at him i couldnt resist thinking about him one day he cried n said she is leaving me i luv her i do wanted her to leave him but the truth was i couldnt do that i couldnt make him luv with me when he was in luv with some the actual truth was that guy had feelings fr someone n i cant let him cry i made them patch up they were happy aftr that i had a little fight with his gf n i left them both n that girl left him too i used to talk to him msg him but he dint reply any so aftr a time i stopped one day that guy said i wanna loose my vurginity with u n i just simply replied if u ever want anyone to love u m her but m not there fr ur lust he said u said u love me so prove it i said ok ill come but i knew what i was going to do next day so when the tym came i called him n said i cnt cme i have sme guests at home i flt he was just kidding with me but then my fren said r u mad tu kbhi mt jaio hell make a joke of u he wasnt kidding i was totally disappointed then my fren told me that evn in that diwali fate he was making out with some girl so i stopped talking to him untill one day he msgd me n said wo bhot buri h i luvd her n usne mjhe chhod dia to i told her what i flt i thought that girl was in a rltnship so i told him abt that too he said ill show her now i was cnvinced i hated that girl bcz sbe left him crying at that particular tym mere dimag me kuch nhi aya tha ki mere dost ne kya kaha tha mjhe he again had a brkup it was a different girl this tym he cried again n i slipped again i tried to cnvince that girl i even begged that girl that girl said to me u r saying this bcz u r in luv with him the truth is u dont actually knw wat kind of a guy he is if u find out ull hate him but i begged her that if he cheated on her again shell slap in frnt of evryone she said u r in luv with him n u wont believe wat m saying but ull find out each n every day me bs use yaad krke roti thi na jaane kyu pr har baar jb me uska patch up kradeti thi wo mujhse baat krna bnd krdeta tha mene bhot tym tk usse baat ni ki thi n ek din me usse bhot gussa hogyi thi so he was cntinuously calling me n that was the day i flt ya may b m smeone in his life but aftr that he ignored me again one day he was pulling my bfs leg but still he said to him tu kuch b krle pr wife to wo meri bnegi i knw wo mazak kr rha tha mere bf se bt pta ni kyu he felt interested bcz of all the pain ive had thinking of not having him took me to a mental cndition named as bipolar disorder i never actually cared that he ignored me all i wamted was to give me a little importance but smewhere i was wrong evry time we get to frens i made him realise that i luv him but baad me sb badal gya they spoiled me smeone made a rumour that i slept with that guy to b his gf evryone started looking at me as if i was a whore him n his gf were in luv n i had no one i was in luv with him i was obsessed i couldnt see him with anyone else so i closed my eyes i tried to concentrate on the guy who loved me but smewhere wo mere dil aur dimag se nhi gya n i lost the guy who luvd me n now m the girl whose all alone the girl jiske kbhi bhot dost the aur ab wo kisipe yakeen nhi krti 2012 n 2013 were my weakest tym bcz that was the tym i lost him frever n i lost each n every prsn i used to call bst fren they all backstabbed me now m a bipolar disorder patient but yes ive learnt alot from life i still love that guy even though i knw he doesnt even care about me but i cant ever frget him watever happened to me was i guess a learning experience now m way too better girl i love myself n i knw that there is no other person could b better than me as my best fren says i just want people to know that pls dont judge me bcz u heard things about me cz m assure if u ever talk to me or try to know me ull find out m not the girl u think i am #d3mon: Zzzz Zzzz Zzz
Posted on: Thu, 17 Jul 2014 05:03:27 +0000
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