#Confession #2962 Title: u dont know how much i loved u “ dead inside ” 30 Male India I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I felt so alone. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this.I dont know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. Ive already lost everything. If youre reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself everyday. These years I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. Ive never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. It didnt matter how many gifts I gave you or how handsome I looked for you. I gave myself completely the pain , everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I cant eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. My job is not even worth it anymore. When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I dont know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, I have seen previously I didnt deserve this. I didnt see any love or commitment from you . My life was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my 7-year and dreams goodbye. I never told you how m doing. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I am a loyal person. I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly. No other man will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. All u can say me a curse but I am not. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love ....says get lost u looser You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for years and you didnt bother. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday when I came to u at previous year. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this.. I am a looser ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Via: Confess Yourself
Posted on: Tue, 09 Dec 2014 15:47:03 +0000