**DIET** ROUND TWO STARTS BIG To those who missed round one of my diet, welcome to round two. I go hard and I have weird eating habits mixed with the kidneys and we know Im just a big ole spew machine so before we get started, some answers to feedback from people that tweaked me last time: 1. I do not have an eating disorder. I follow Paul McKenna and NLP in terms of diet and its a very simple way of doing it: If Im not hungry, I dont eat. If I want something (good or bad), I will get it. This was a huge part of dropping the 120 pounds. The human body, as long as it is hydrated and Im always sucking down water, can go a day without eating solid food. There are days Im so nauseous I wouldnt want to eat if I wasnt sick so please stop telling me I have an eating disorder if I go a day or two (two at the very most) without eating solid food. 2. I am not bulimic. I would love to see the day come when the only time I throw up is because I drank too much Fireball Whisky or Red Stag and Diet Coke. I do not enjoy the spew sessions. I do not induce the spew sessions. I was particularly bothered when this rumour went around but people just love to speculate. 3. Please let me get to my goal. My new PCP and my kidney guy have agreed that 125 is a healthy weight for my size and frame (54 and medium frame). This puts me in a size 6 or 8, both healthy sizes. I have no desire to wear a bikini, I have no desire to be too thin. If my doctors are recommending this weight, I trust their recommendation. With that in mind, I set a final goal of 120 pounds so I could have that 5 pound gain back as lifestyle changes from losing to maintaining, I was amused and bemused at some of the petty shit I encountered last Summer. I had hit 139 pounds and a size 6 (except for those damn leather pants, they were so close and the last 20 would have hit it). Friends telling me to stop losing weight already, petty shit that I was just doing it for attention, eye rolls when I said I had another 19 pounds to go, the accusations of being bulimic and/or starving myself. Meanwhile I was at the healthiest I had ever been (even before the kidneys went) and I felt good so I ignored it but it bothered me. 4. So please keep your negativity to yourself. I have fully committed to this and Im not stopping now until Loki (the scale) says 120. I did a hell of a lot of damage between holidays and losing Billy right after and Im disgusted. I refuse to be the Great Green FAT Jets Genie (Jets whale?) at opening day so the crunch is on. Ive got my ketones and beans and let the walking begin again. Understand that as much as there is definitely vanity involved (I miss taking pictures, I was becoming a picture whore), its more about health. I can feel the 45 pounds gained back taking a toll on me (its actually 40 now but we havent had the official step on Loki (the scale) day yet. Even if I can only walk a mile with the gall bladder pain, Ill do it. 5. Know that I appreciate your support and well wishes and I need it. Ive never lost weight for myself before. Had Billy not come into my life I only would have kept on gaining more from the 255 I was and who knows where I would be now. This is the first time I am doing this solely for ME. Not to look good in green for him, for me. Hopefully I can find myself as important a motivator as wanting to look good for Captain Perfect Hair was. 6. Yes, my methods are unconventional and not anything I can describe to anyone else as a way to lose weight other than the ketones and beans. In some ways, the spewing and the kidney failure help with the diet and its one aspect Im thankful for in a cynical kind of way. It should be enough that my levels were at their lowest, I felt better than I ever had and even the kidneys were in check. So here we go, 100% full time regime has begun again. Leather pants and size 6 Jets denim mini skirt, Im coming for you, hard.
Posted on: Sun, 03 Aug 2014 18:25:21 +0000
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