#Day50: Its amazing how time flies. Last year on Dec 28 I went to church with my best friend and during worship I leaned over to her and said, today is my last Sunday in church. I had known a few months earlier that I wont be coming back but was toying with the idea of staying. But that day, during worship nogal, I knew I had made the right decision. Today, exactly a year later, I believe I have come full circle and Im loving the space Im in. When I stepped out last year, I couldnt imagine going a week or two without church. I thought I was going to crack, lose my mind and have the fear of missing out and run back. I thought I would lose favor with God and He would eventually leave me. I was afraid to be out of touch and to lose my spiritual connection. But boy, was I wrong! I found that my spiritual connection is independent of the church, I found myself looking forward to the quiet times with God because I didnt need to go through a religious procedure to connect with Him. Our church happened anywhere, whenever, however. I found that the anxiety I thought Id feel was more of a laid back, take my time, let it sink in, let myself soak into it kind of journey. Ive been to church a few times this year though because of events- a wedding here, a few funerals there, anniversaries, some excommunications- just kidding! But yes, I went to events that had the church element in them but even then, nothing said, dont you miss this?. Instead I can count more on my fingers and toes the benefits of taking time out. Would I go another year without church? Most probably! Growth, enlightenment, awareness, simplicity, revelation, peace and most of all, love have never been this attractive, this easily accessible and so easily tangible. I didnt need to go too far, all I needed was to look within myself and was sorted. Im not saying you must stop going to church, our journeys will not be the same. When we are ready and the time is right, our turn and lessons in life will show up. And just because we are ready and the time is right, doesnt mean it will be a smooth sailing. In fact, you feel like a rug has been pulled from under your feet. Nothing makes sense, you lose friends and family because this new you is just too much to handle. When I left last year, I didnt know where I was going, I didnt have a plan. I didnt foresee going through a whole year without church. And what a year its been! I dont know what the next year holds but I know things will not be the same, we cant and wont stay in the same place. Growth is inevitable and we are surely and constantly changing. Im ready, lets! #70DaysOfThisAndThat
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 22:19:45 +0000
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