# Insert 191 Days passed and makhulu besele ngcwatyiwe and Sbonos ceremony was near. I woke up that morning with a huge lump in my throat and I spent the whole night with my brother. I made it through the ceremony but I couldnt make it to the graveyard. I went up to my room and I got there and Lindo was sitting on my bed and he was crying. I stood at the door and the pain was getting worse. I sat next to him and I hugged him ndabe nam sendigxiza zinyembezi. He told me he had a lot of questions to ask but no one would be able to answer them. I asked him to help me get rid of impahla ja Sbono cause it cant be in the house any longer. We sat on my bed sisonga impahla ka Sbono, sabe sincokola about the good days and the day I gave birth to our daughter right until the day she died. Siba, Liyema, Babes no Nalo came into my room and they wanted to make sure that we were fine. The ceremony went by well and my aunts left nezinto zka Sbono and all we had left were pictures and memories. Lindo left at 7pm and I stayed in my room ndalungiselela ulala and I had a huge headache. Sgqi: OoKhaydo bamnkile but theyll be back. Me: Ok. Sgqi: Zolala apha namhlanje. He said engena ecalen kwam wabe ethethela phantsi. Sgqi: Im so sorry about everything ntwana yam. If I could undo all this I would, but yazi one day kuyoze kubemnandi nakuthi kuyoze kunethe ubumnandi. Yonke lento yenzekayo is making us stronger for our next life. Were left alone ngoku, were the only family we have and ndifuna sibesoy2 kuyo yonke lento yenzekayo. Me: Sgqi... Sgqi: Yima, yonke lento yenzekileyo is part of life funeka sinyamezele. Uhlale uyazi ba I love you and thatll never change, Im here for you. A tear escaped his eye ndabe ndimbona kudala ezibambile. Me: Hayke sulila... Sgqi: Sisezokonwaba yeva? Kusezoba mnandi I promise. Me: Ewe mntase kuzoba njalo, I love you maan. I said holding back my tears and we chilled in my bed cuddling. Days passed and uBabes, Zipho no Siba came to my house eveyday. They cleaned up, made me food and tried to make me feel better. For the first time I felt loved and special babes always said to me Akuzonceda ukhala, funda uqina. Vuka ke. And Bendiphela ndivuka nyan, I spent most of my time with them. I woke up one morning and uZipho told me we should go out to the park to help me recover. Me: Bazathi yinton abantu, ndisando ngcwaba ndibe ndisestratwen. Zipho: This is about you, you need to heal sisi. Im not saying masiyonxila, Im saying remember life goes on. Ubomi abumanga ngxi. I agreed ke nam and we headed for the park ndinxibe impahla yam emnyama qha andathwala. We got there kwabe ku empty sahlala on the grass sincokola. For the first time I opened up to uZipho and I told her how I was feeling. I wished God had taken me akhe anike uSbono ichance to live life like I did. I told her I didnt know why I had to live cause now, theres nothing to keep me going. She told me she wouldnt pretend to know how Im feeling but kuyo yonke lonto I must know uThixo usekhona and he has something better instore for me. Sithe xa sizohamba we bumped into uGugu. I was glad that he showed me ba ungumntu onjani before we got serious. Gugu: Molweni, im sorry about your loss Siba. Zipho: Okay.. Gugu: Im sorry things ended this way, I still love you. And I want you back.. Me: Hay wethu khandiyeke mna. I got up ndabe ndzbambile cause I was so angry and so hurt qha bendingafuni ulila infront of him. Zipho and I headed home and I told her how uGugu dumped me, I also told her that I loved uLindo but I was confused and things were gonna be hard cause we just lost our baby. Zipho: Mamela uLindo andimthandi nhe, but he makes u happy. If I were u bendizobuyela ku Lindo cause no guy in this world us going to understand what you went through except for uLindo. Its ur choice ke.. Chuma: Sbadz.. Tyhin ugrand ntwana? Me: Yeah wena? Chuma: Yhoo joe askies maan, ube ryt maan. I smiled wabe encokola no Zipho kengoku and I spotted uLindo walking out of Chumas crib wafika wabulisa and he pulled my aside. Lindo: Uziva ryt? I nodded. Lindo: Bawela noba kunini siye emangcwabeni sikhe siyobona uSbono since singamlalisanga thina. Me: When? I asked as tears filled my eyes. Lindo: Noba kunini babe, cela ungalili ke. Yayazi uSbono ba we loved and lived for her. Now I live for you. I looked at him ndabe ndispeechless cause he was so serious. He told me his mother was gone and that he lived alone. Chuma: Acuse ixesha kaloku... Lindo: Sho mfethu. Siba uzoba grand mos? Me: Ewe. Lindo: Okay ke, Ill pray for us ke. Me: You do that, nam ndokwenza njalo. We went our separate ways and I got home ndakhe ndahlala and I read my baby journal while uZipho was bathing. There was a knock on the door and it was Gugus twin wabe efuna uZipho. I showed him indlela eya elounge and they chilled at the lounge and I had Ziphos phone. Liyema called and she told me how sorry she was that everything had happend and that she still loved me. Me: Uncede wethu umthande umntana wakho cause owam usweleke engaluvanga uthando lka mamakhe cause I was never with her. We then ended the call. A few days later uNalo came to my house and we chiled in my room no Babes ekhona. I asked her about the pregnancy. Me: Uye walala nin no Sgqi? Didnt I tell u ba uSgqi is off limits? Nalo: Mna ndilale no Sgqi? Uphambene peto. Babes: Kengoku why uxoka? Kutheni ufuna umbambiss ilahla? Nalo: Siyolise akamfuni umntana and... Me: Akazobhatala sisu uSgqi, and undiqhela ikaka. Unaso nesibindi sondixelela bs ubuxoka? Babes: Unyile ke. Nalo: Cela nimamele.. I got up and I left... Its short but I had to atleast post something niyazi ndisekhona
Posted on: Wed, 16 Jul 2014 10:37:25 +0000
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