•••Insert #66••• Kwadlula iveki mna no Asi singathethisani njalo, everyday at school yayibangathi iskolo asisaphumi coz I felt like there was nothing there for me. NoLubanzi ngokunjalo sasingathethi oko sagqibela ngalamini, yayingandiphethanga kakuhle kodwa ke kwakungekhonto endandizoyenza. Everything was going well at school except that ndandingatithandi indlela uMr Steve wayendijonga ngayo it made me feel uncomfortable. He was giving me more attention, even though his excuse was to help but yayingandihlelanga kamandi ncam noko lento, my instincts were just telling me otherwise. Kudla ngokuthi ubozimamela I instincts zakho. I tried keeping my distance but kwakungekho lula since he was all over the school. I was a loner ndihleli nje ndizihlelele ndedwa and my books had become my best friends, every chance I got ndandihlala ndijongane nazo. I guess me failing was a wake up call and somehow opened my eyes to see the bigger picture. Bendisazihlele phantsi komthi when I saw uAsekho nabangani bakhe walking to the tuck shop which I just couldnt stand it.... I closed my book Ndaphakama ndaya kubo ndabulisa then ndacela uthetha noAsekho in private. Asi:Ndiyeza guys (they walked qway)... Yinton? Watsho sesonge izandla Me:I wanna talk to u Asi:M listening Me:look Asi ndiyayaz undiqumbele and I dont blame u, but lets face it braaa uzoqumba kude kube nini? We best friends for heavens sake, aykho right lento nawe uyazi futhi.. M sorry for what I did and I know this aint no excuse mara I wasnt coping,Icouldnt handle it anymore and yes I hooked up with the wrong people whom I thought were friends but... (sigh) all m tryna say is yes I made a mistake and ndakuvisa kabuhlungu but ndi.... Asi:M your best friend right Liso? Me:yes u are Asi:then why is it so hard for u to open up to me? Why cant u trust me? Kuthen lento uzokhangela abantu ndikhona? Me:M sorry I know I messed up braa but uzondiqumbela de kube nini? I need my best friend back Asi:U cant always mess up your life everytime thingsd get hard, uve been thru a lot already and u handled it very well it will be stupid to just give up now. And m here too anytime u need me u know that.. Annyway I miss u too.. I just hope youve learned your lesson.. I cant just be your friend only when it suits u Me:thank u thank u I hugged her kissing her all over the face I knew she hated that Asi:Ok stop!! Chill Me:got no idea how much I missed u braaa I was about to lose my mind Asi:I missed you too braa We hughed again holding each other for some time.. Asi:so come on tell me everything and I mean everything Sahamba sayohlala phantsi komthi, my mood had changed just because ndandingayaz ba ndizomxelela njan uAsi ba I failed, I almost got raped, and that I had broken up with Banzi for real, ok yayingazobayi issue noko leka Banzi so I decided bana ndiqale ngayo... Me:well I broke up with Banzi Asi:pssst (wa roller amehlo) please tell me something I dont know Me:I think its for good this time chommy Asi:Mnxxxm hay wethu nizobuyelana like u always do Me:m not so sure but ke its for the best Asi:yini kanti? Why dd yall break up this time Me:haz chommy m tired marn yinto yonke and I just wanna focus on my school work and sort out my life Asi:oh hayke chommy if uyibeka njalo then thats fine as long as u ok.. are u? Me:well m coping Asi:good... anymore news?? Kudala singathethi kalok fondin Me:well... Ndithe ndingekathethi yakhala intsimbi kqabe sele kufuneka singene eclassin and we ddnt waste time we went straight to class sahlala ngendawo zethu.. Ingqondo yam yayingabambi tuu I was busy rehearsing how i was gonna tell Asi all of this. School got out uAsi waza kum wandilinsa ndapakisha ncwadi zam then sahamba.. sasithule sobabini phofu yena wayecofa ifoun mna ke ndandisacinga indlela yothetha. Asi:yinton uthule kangaka Me:hay marn ndiyacinga Asi:ungazibulali findin sikhona Me:funny u had to say that (ndaziva sendtshilo I guess I said it subconsciously without realising..) Asi:what do u mean? Me:uhhhm its a joke chommy (ndafane ndazihlekahlekisa but she wasnt convinced at all ndandimbona nje apha ebuswen ba uneskrokro ssalento ndandiythetha but ke akazange ayilande saqhubeka sahamba) Sithe sisahamba njalo again kwamisa imoto ka Mr Steve and offered me a lift since ebesiya ngase town again! I refused this time around saying ndizogqitha kuloAsi we have something to do Him:Are u gonna take long? I can wait for u Me:No sir m fine thanx Hayke u Asi wayemjonge ntshoo ethe manga uba kwakusenzeka nton, phofu ucinga wayenaso isazela utata umfundisi lo? Noo not at all kwakungathi wenza into eqhelekileyo in which we all know ayonto ebekumela iyenzeka. Rumours were already starting to roam around that we were an item, naye wayengancedisani nam ngoba nyhan ihlobo ewayendiphatha ngalo eclassin was different, ndandiyonyanya lonto kangangokuba if it was up to me I would change classes.. After emkile uAsi khange abe saphozisa maseko wandijonga ngalamehlo akhe eqhwanyaza into engapheliyo Asi:And then? Umadala? Sithin story sakhe? Me:Mnxxm! Uyandidika yaz andimaz undifunan Asi:Psst! Obviously he wants the cookie.. Kuthen waske wa concerned nguwe all of a sudden Me:Beats me.. Asi:Ube careful ke sana hey zinyoka ababantu.. Phof I trust u Me:Dont worry chommy uzama upheka nje I meal angazoyitya Asi:Ok.. Nantsi transport khwela ingakshiyi zobona ngomso Me:Shaarp chommy.. We hugged ndakhwela yahamba imoto.. Ndakhupha I phone yam epokothwen ye shirt ndabe ndine missed calls from Athi but azange ndizinake ndathatha I phone ndayifaka ebhakeni wam. I got to town ndayoqala elibrary before ndigoduke, nyhan ndafunda till I was exhausted. Xa ndphuma emnyango ndagileka kuLubanzi not intentionally coz ndandingambonanga naye ngokunjalo futhi.. Me:M so sorry (ndatsho sendiphakamisa intloko) Ooh Lubanzi I ddnt see you sorry Banzi:Same here Ndaqhubeka ndahamba without looking back, he was so cold I mean wayebanda ceke inoba nebody temperature yakhe yayingu 5 degrees, not that I was surprised vele yayilindelekile. Kwa ihlobo ichommy zakhe zazindijonge ngalo kwakucaca ba sebesazi yonke into ngoba kwabona babentshingintshingi. I got home ndabe ndidinwe ndisifa phofu kungekho kutya kungona kusaphekwa. Eyona nto yayibuhlungu ke pa is noba ukutya kwakho kwasemin bekubekiwe ubakhona lo ukubona kufanele esakhe isisu akutye but xa ubuza nobody knows, yilento yenzeka kum ke leyo. Ndandifutha ngumsindo coz ndandilambe nyhan ndaya straight eroomin ndaziphosa ebhedin ndalila phofu ndililiswa ngumsindo. Apparently ndiye ndabiwa bubuthongo while still at it ndazokothuswa ngumntana xa endikhwaza endivusa Yonela:Liso! Liso! (Shaking me up) Me:Mmmhhh Yonela:Iza uyabizwa Me:Nguban na? Yonela:Ngulabhuti upha efront... Vuka iza Ingqondo yam yakhawuleza yabalekela kuLubanzi, I mean akekho omnye umntu onoza kum ongumfana azondifuna that I was sure about. Ndaswabuluka ndavuka ndashixiza nge morning shoes zam ndaqala ndayohlamba ubuso noko ndandingazode ndibone omnye umntana ngemikhala nentongo.. I cleaned my face ndalungisa inwele zam ndahamba ndaya e sitting room. Ndithe xa ndingena waguquka wandijonga wabe behleli esofeni Me:Athi?? Ufuna nton apha? Athi:(waphakama)Hii.. Uhm unjan? Me:Uzothini apha? Ufike nini? Athi:Can we talk outside Ndamqalela ndaphuma wabe evalelisa endlini wandilandela ndama phandle.. Athi:Awusequmbe Me:Awukandiphenduli.. U cant just come here and ask for me Athi:Bendizode ndithin? U not taking my calls, u not responding to my texts bendizothin? Me:Khanguycinge ba its because andifun thetha nawe? Athi:Cela singene emotwen coz uyagodola nam futh Me:I.. Athi:Please Liso.. We got in the car, kwakunuka ukutya nje kulemoto I think kwakusele kunuiswa nayilento yoba ndandilambe ndisifa, ndandiginya ingqiqi ndi salivater into engapheliyo. Me:Thetha ke Athi ufuna nton? Athi:I dont know I want u to tell me that.. We were fine when I left then all of a sudden u wanna take a break I mean it doesnt make sense at all.. What? Did I do something? Yini? Me:Ayonto Athi I just wanna fix my life Athi:Then who said u cant fix it with me around? Me:I.. I just need space from everyone I need to re think and u know Athi:Thats fine, m fine with that but what damage m I gonna cause? Do u know u came here specially just to talk to you? Thats how much I care in case u havent realised, and this break thing yakho ayindiphethanga kahle mfethu honestly Me:What do u want me to do ke Athi? Athi:Give me a chance, just.. I wont stand before u with your life plans and school, vele ndihlala kude itll be like m not even there.. I like u Liso too much and m sorry but I cant just let u go like that Me:Ingathi u gonna have to ke Athi:Just think about it ke at least.. And Ill wait for as long as it takes just dont shut me out I cant handle that It was sad hearing him talk like that, and enyanisweni uAthi akazange andenze nto all he has been was just to be good to me, he was there whenever I needed him. It broke my heart to see him like that and to even think he ddnt deserve it Me:Ok fine well keep in touch Athi:(sighed) now u talking! I promise Ill give u all the space u need Me:(laugh)No need.. The distance is enough space on its own Athi:(smiled)Gosh m so tired and hungry.. Me:Well u got food (ok nam ndandikbawela moss oku kutya :v ) and sowuzofika nakowenu m sure umamakho ukuphekele Athi:Sendingxamele nje lonto ukutya kuka mamzo yhooo.. Ungathatha noku futh Me:M not hungry Who was I kidding? Ofcoz I was hungry ndandilambe ndingatya nenyama yenja ndiyibona Athi:Ok then ungakupha abantwana m sure bazokutya bona coz akuzotyiwa mntu pha endlini Me:Ok just for the kids.. (Took the take away) Athi:I should be going now before I even get u into trouble Me:Ok drive safe ke ungalali sowufikile Athi:Hay noko.. Hugs?? I smiled and hugged him, damn his cologne wayenuka fresh njeee :) Me:Ok goodnight Athi:Night.. See you I got out ndabaleka ndaya endlini ndangena straight eroomin, there was no way I was gonna give the kids ukutya ndibe ndilambe ndisifa mna ibe ingabo nabatye ukutya kwam. Ndafika ndazivalela ndangena kuwo hay yayingathi ayavuleka amazulu kunini ndilambile :v Uviwe-umthandazo waMamia
Posted on: Sun, 19 Oct 2014 06:55:45 +0000
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