Samwel Tendet > Life Coach, Marriage and Youth Counselling SHOCK!!!!!!!! SHOCK CONFESSION frm one of friend i meet during december holiday in nairobi ...... My name is ANNE and I live in Umoja, Nairobi .... I had S£X with my brother by mistake ... Please READ her story and help Hi Tendet I seriously dont know how to TELL this and honestly am utterly embarrassed and disgusted with myself. I cannot accept the reality that it was me who started this and am now disgusted to death. I need support and words of encouragements from you AND YOUR friends . I am 19 years old living with my brother in a single room in Umoja, after completing my 4th form last year my parents asked me to move and live with my brother as I await going to college. My parents are in upcountry and my brother works in Burma market selling meat, we are very close with each other and he is really kind and friendly to everyone and also very popular guy. My brother is the only guy I know in Nairobi and am really close with him, we fool around sometimes and most of the time we sleep on the same bed/couch watching movies or play video games together till midnight. We do change cloths in the presence of each other and never see anything sinister about it coz we are totally free with one another. While watching soaps I sometimes imagine romantic things in my mind, I often secretly admire him for his kindness and the brotherly love he shows me. Last weekend(on dec) while watching TV he came back from work looking tired and sat next to me on the couch and soon fell asleep in front of the TV. At first i merely sat beside him and snuggle to him and asked him to put his head on my lap. I was bored with the movie and wanted to him to talk but he looked really tired, then I thought I should seduce him just for fun and laugh. I made a bold move and put my hand inside his trouser, I was always curious over that but in my mind I thought that if he gets agitated I would say I was joking. Since he was tired he didnt say much I continued to stroke it up and down and instead his thing got really hard, I assured myself that I was in control and nothing was going to happen since it was a mere joke. I started laughing coz he smiled and looked as if he enjoyed. Then surprisingly I unzipped his trousers and removed his thing, it was so cute but hard and I remember thinking is it always this tall, shinny and round at the top. It was my first time holding such a thing, then it happened. He jumped on top of me. I cried coz it hurt soo bad, I tried to stop him but he did not listen to me. Admin, the stories and movies I see portray a very different picture of people enjoying but this was different. I felt it all the way to my throat and the sooner he stopped we were slapped back to reality and recognized what we just did. I felt torn and hurt in my body and heart and he looked apologetic and apologized to me profusely. I also apologized for taking it too far and then I cried and run to the bathroom to bath and wash all of that. And while at the bathroom he entered and asked me if he hurt me, I told him it was my first time and to my surprise, he also said it was his first time too. He looked shocked and apologized again crying. We promised not to tell anyone, then i went out the verandah and decided to take a walk as I left him in the house crying. I just wondered whether he also felt pain. Am afraid of looking at him because of the shame, I feel dirty and unworthy right now. Am walking with difficulty due to the Saturday ordeal and am soo scared of being pregnant and also if our parents find out...help... Anne
Posted on: Thu, 20 Mar 2014 13:12:47 +0000