#TBT four years ago today, four positive pregnancy tests later I found out I was expecting one of Gods greatest gifts... my first child, Addilyn! I had no idea the trials, challenges, heartache, love, joy, blessings and greatness this life would bring with it. I was clueless to motherhood and all that it had to offer. I was blessed with the worlds greatest mother but I personally, didnt know how to be a mom. The beauty about your first child (for many) is learning to be a parent for the very first time and all those little tricks that only moms know. I speak only from my personal experience when I say this, being a mom the first time was easier (for lack of a better word) than becoming a mom for the second time. With Addilyn, I didnt know life any different. She was sick from the day of her birth, thats what she knew, thats what I knew. Shes depended on me for everything for the last three years (and almost four months) of her life. I am her arms, her legs, her voice and above all, her advocate. I feed her, I bathe her, I change her, I give her medication all day everyday (unless her nurse is here to pick up my slack, which Im always grateful for). I do breathing treatments, fun activities and read books with her. I take her to school, dance and she makes visits to daycare. I do my best to give her a life of comfort, quality and normalcy. I try to treat her as if shes no different, as if she were healthy because, she deserves nothing less and because I believe, that gives her purpose and reason to live! Being a mom the first time came easy, because I knew it no other way. This was motherhood to me! The second time was hard. Both of my children have brought so much goodness, happiness, joy and blessings to my life. I cherish both of them more than many will ever truly know. It doesnt matter how long I search for the words to express my love for them, Im speechless - but, if you could see my heart, I know youd understand. Being a mother to Addilyn (as a rule) came easy. The journey has been incredibly hard but being her mom has always been easy. Being a mother for the second time is when I struggled. My love for Rilyn (my second born child) and motherhood didnt struggle, but my new understanding of motherhood is what I struggled with. Everything that I did/knew as a mom (to Addilyn) had changed immensely. I didnt have to be Rilyns arms or legs, because shes capable of moving them on her own. I dont have to walk or talk for her, she does that on her own too. Im now a little over a year into being a mom for the second time around to a perfect, beautiful, funny little girl and it has been so full of love, life and unexpected, pleasant surprises. God gave her the ability to do all these things that healthychildren do. He gave her the ability to be independent and my thanks to Him is everlasting - but, it is for both of my children. Healthy or unhealthy, I love them exactly how they are and Im so indescribably thankful for them. When I envisioned motherhood I never saw it as being this way but Ive learned to embrace it and the changes that are forever coming with it. This journey has brought my faith to the forefront. Ive learned to trust Him because I know, if He brings me to it, He will bring me through it. I feel so blessed and grateful to have two beautiful, perfect little girls. The personalities they have and the love they share is flawless. For me, being a mom is never what I expected it to be, its BETTER! Each day is a learning opportunity, for me as well as for them. Theres a saying that goes something like this (I know this isnt it but its the right idea) I planned and prepared to teach my child all about the world, but the lesson changed and my child taught me what the world is all about. These words ring truth throughout my journey of motherhood. Everyday I am blessed to be a Mom to two perfect children here in this world. And I am grateful! With that all being said, Addilyn seems to have another hurdle to overcome. Shes congested and a bit uncomfortable and Im praying we will be able to manage her without antibiotics because as a rule, its just viral anyway. I hope and pray her body has the strength to fight whatever this is off... Her baby sister Rilyn, has also been sick with an ear infection causing her to be uncomfortable. When Rilyn is sick she wants to be as close to Addilyn as she can possibly get. This ids what you see in the second picture. If one gets sick, they both end up with it inevitably. The togetherness they display is so amazing. Your thoughts and prayers for them are ALWAYS greatly appreciated. May you be blessed in ways that you dont understand and may you feel our love and thanks surround you for all that you do/have done for our family! We hope your night is blessed.
Posted on: Fri, 05 Dec 2014 04:58:16 +0000
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