#TLFADVICE #4427 THE MAN WHO CANT BE MOVED Ive been reading alot of confessions on this page and frankly im not a fan of writing down events of my life for everyone to read. As far as my 5 years stay here at SLU, my life has been a great big book of stories based on both happy and sad experiences. Its a hell of story where I learned tons of lessons and principles as I grow up. I met her late november of last year. I wasnt really that into her. Shes small, she wore eyeglasses that time and yes, she was, well, beautiful and i knew she was one hell of a smart student. Ive just gotten out of a bad relationship with my girlfriend that time and I really just wanted a time for my self. At first it was a friendly relationship where flirting was undeniably inevitable. We went to alot of SLU events that december such as the schools christmas lighting and the schools lantern parade, went through all the booths at the schools bazaar. We started talking for hours, texting and those late night calls were most definitely the highlight of my evenings. We often eat after school and I always go and fetch her after my class. We talked all about our weaknesses, our strengths, our most intimate details, what scares us and what makes us laugh. It was like for the first time in my life, things were starting to go right, all the stars were aligned, and the whole universe was telling us to be together. I was looking for what the catch was for having such an amazing girl beside me. I wasnt that goodlooking nor that smart, and i was not that interesting either, I was a junk to peopleeyes, i was pretty much nothing. But I knew I was pretty lucky to have her beside me that time. Few more months and eventually we became an official couple and almost everyone wished us the best. We did share alot of moments together. Long walks on the way home, dates, intimate moments, romantic evenings, boring days, alot of fightings, coffee afternoons, promises we tried so hard to protect were everything our relationship came to be. It was a nurturing relationship based on mutual respect and love for each other. It was a perfect scenario where I found contentment, I was settled and had hopes of being together with this woman for the rest of my life. Last August of this year, we broke up. I couldnt exactly pin down what the reason was for she stated that I was too clingy, I dont respect her space, that we want different things in life. I clearly didnt see all of these coming for what I thought that we fought for that night was that I learned that she went out with another guy while I was away. My life crumbled to pieces and i eventually begged her to take me back. I couldnt think straight, my heart was pounding restlessly as i begun to realize that I was gonna lose the love of my life. I went to see her hoping we could have a talk to work things out but It was a firm answer when she rejected me and told me to find someone else. I knew I had no choice but to move on as I realized that I cant keep a person to stay in my life when clearly she no longer doesnt want to be a part of mine. She was my something that turned into my everything and in a blink of an eye, everything fell. The promises, those moments that became just another damn memory I couldnt forget, everything we made, and everything we cared, all the dreams we built and everything in between were gone. In a blink of an eye. Ive been wondering where the hell did I go wrong? Did I lack or did I gave more than what I could give? coz honestly I couldnt move on. And if there is an instruction manual on how to shut down feelings or how to move one or if there is even a book entitled Moving on for dummies I would give all my money to buy the freakin thing. She clearly moved on and Im stuck here sulking and typing my weary heart out for everyone to read a sad pathetic story of a man. A man who cant be move as hes here at the coffee shop where they used to hang out while waiting for a miracle that he knew wouldnt come. Now people, I have to ask.. How do I unlove a person? ~Lame Guy\5th year\SEA
Posted on: Tue, 09 Dec 2014 10:00:00 +0000
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