#TLFSHOUTOUT #4245 YOU GAVE ME FOREVER IN A NUMBER OF YEARS To those of you who would want to read this, no matter how long this seemed to be, Thankyou. To the man who gave me forever in a number of years, First year when I first met you and you caught my attention. That time, I am not in need of a boyfriend because I needed to focus on my studies, so binalewala kita. Narealize ko na crush pala kita. Pero, I didnt stick much on that feeling kasi crush lang kita and I am not that kind of person to chase after you. By the end of 2nd year, madalas na tayong magkatext. Kung bat pa kasi kita nakagroup sa mga laboratories! Tuloy, naging buddies tayo. We went from talking about school to talking about our personal lives. Our dreams. Our desires in life. Everything personal. Then I realized, I was falling for you. I tried to forget about that feeling, kasi youre close to perfection, everything I am not. After months of being bestfriends, umamin ka sakin na you were falling hard for me. And one day you asked me if I can be your gf. Natahimik ako, all of a sudden, you broke my silence and told me you cant handle us being bestfriends, and that you wanna take it to the next level. I dont know what came in to my mind, that I said yes. That moment, you made me the happiest girl alive. Weve been together for 4 years, sa 2nd month naten, naging legal tayo. We didnt hide anything from our family and friends. We had each others back, like bestfriends do. And we loved each other so much, like married couples. Youve been one of my inspirations for finishing our degree. Our relationship was tested din, we had our highs and lows, but we both never gave up on each other. Perfect na sana tayo eh, akala ko ikaw na talaga, ang dami na nating plano para sa future natin. Pero nakipagkita ka then you broke up with me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I gave you an hour to explain and tell me why. But no explanation came from you. I cried so hard infront of you. Akala ko kasi maaawa ka. I wiped all my tears, I took the courage to leave. It was painful for me that you were breaking up, but the thought that you cant tell me a reason makes the pain unbearablel. At that moment, I was having the most terrible headache of my life. Yung tipong anytime babagsak na ako, kasi sobrang sakit ng ulo ko. I tried to look back to see if you were there chasing me, instead I saw the sight of you going the opposite direction. Umiyak ako ng sobra hindi ko alam kung dahil sa sakit ng ulo ko or dahil sa nafeel ko na last na pala nating pagkikita yun. The next thing I know, I was in a hospital bed. I saw my father on his phone. And a man, who I thought was about my age, was on his seat looking at me. I asked what happened, all they could ever tell me was that guy saw me collapsed. And then sumakit uli yung ulo ko. The doctor attending to me told my father I have to undergo a CT scan. That was the first time I saw my dad cry; they said they saw a tumor on my brain. I felt my world break into pieces, losing you and knowing I had that disease inside me. Minsan walang sakit minsan sobra namang sakit. Yung guy na tumulong sakin inalagaan nya ako for a year, we became friends, until naging kami. Hindi ako lumandi, gumaan lang loob ko sa kanya. Nagundergo ako sa major operation, tinanggal nila yung tumor. 50-50 na ako non. After that nagpropose sya sakin, the guy who took care of me. I cant say no, because I owe him my life. When I sent out invitations, some of our friends told me na mahal mo pa daw ako. Teary-eyed ako non. Hindi ko maiwasan. But, its too late. Im getting married. Kung di mo ako iniwan, sana ikaw yung masisilayan kong naghihintay sakin sa altar. Sayo ko sana sasabihin yung I do ko. Ikaw sana yung kasama kong magproprove ng forever kung binigyan mo ko ng explanation sa breakup natin, baka nagkaayos pa tayo. I believe that there is still love between us, but I know its not enough to keep us together. Im hoping mabasa mo to. I heard from your mom youre running your own computershop jan sa inyo, and I saw you liking some posts here. So I guess this is enough. You know yourself, because the whole batch knew about what happened to me. Thank you for letting me go, because of you, I found the man I truly needed, the man who truly loved me. P.S. Im free from any disease, and Im forever thankful for that. ~FUTUREMISISNYA\Graduate\SNS
Posted on: Fri, 28 Nov 2014 00:00:00 +0000