#TLFSTORIES #4711 THANK GOD I DON’T HAVE BOYFRIEND AND I NEVER HAD ONE It’s been two years since I graduated from college in SLU.. and now I already have a permanent Job, I have that phobia of informing my family that I don’t feel good since the day they did not give any attention when I could hardly breathe when I was a kid because my brother was attack by his allergy when the day for my check up came. They left me in the car when we were already in the hospital, without remembering that they should let the doctor see my condition too. I kept quiet and since then I never tell anything about my condition. Here I come, now that we, with my siblings, were all grown up I am the only one who finishes a bachelor’s degree not to brag guys. And since I already have this stable job I promised to myself that I would go to a doctor for an overall check-up. After graduation I am that too free, I can hang out with my friends until midnight. I always go out with them, after work we have this sports time, playing badminton, basketball, table tennis, and volleyball. We also have that weekend habit of going out for a picnic and attending mass during Sunday. But with this hobby I also have time for my family especially during birthdays; I buy cake for every family member, from my mom to my grandparents and to my nieces and nephews, who has birthday. I make surprises for them; I cook for their birthday and invite their friends and our relatives. And every day I have this time of having time laughing with them, there’s no day gone without letting me see their priceless smile, which is my happiness with them. I try to see that my life is balance with my friends and family. Now that I am already 23 years old, even if there was no special celebration during my day, my family’s hugs and greetings was enough and that already made me happy. Since I already save something for my li’l brother’s birthday I went for a check-up.. then after two days I went back for the result. I entered the office of the doctor, smiling, happily greeted her good morning.. We had a little chat then he already told the result. Everything turned into darkness when he uttered CANCER.. Upon hearing that, there’s no more word that I heard. My eye focused on the small crucifix in the wall, thinking nothing and every sweet smile of my family members and friends flash into my mind. My consciousness only went back when his phone rung and that time, he was already standing, getting the medicine he listed on a paper. After answering the phone he asked me if I understood everything and if I have question, I just get the paper and asked if everything is already listed. He again asked if there’s no more question and I said, “no more Doc, I understand everything and I’ll just contact you if I have more clarification” (with a smile). As I went out I could hardly hold onto my tears thinking how will my family react if they will find out that I am sick? I don’t want to happen again the pain I experience when I was a kid, I don’t want to know/see that they won’t care again.. until now, I haven’t read my result or any paper that my doctor gave. And every single day I make sure that I have a priceless and sweetest smile from my family and friends. I just want to make them happy and I know I am big and old enough to handle myself. I really don’t want to read the result and till now I even don’t know what stage of this brain cancer is. And I believe that if it’s already my time, that is already the time granted for me. If this sickness got worse and theyll notice it, then let it be, I just want to enjoy the time bestowed to me, normally and I really don’t want medicines. I will just save the money for my burial so that they won’t have much problem when I’m gone. BUT, THANK GOD I DON’T HAVE BOYFRIEND AND NEVER HAD ONE SINCE BIRTH at least it would be easier for me to leave (I guess).. . THOUGH, I wish cancer have cancer and die. ~BadPiNKGirl\Graduate 2013\SABM
Posted on: Wed, 21 Jan 2015 09:34:00 +0000
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