08/19/2014 I be knowing that God always has a multitude of purposes for every action or non-action that takes place. In me study of ACIM, there be only one sentence in the entire book that I highlighted, That be under Lesson 25, and the sentence be: Purpose is meaning. Interestingly me favorate numbers have always been 5 and 25 (and what a shame it be that I did not manage to associate these two numbers with me fathers mothers birthday). So today when I was afraid that I wouldnt be able to get me shoes on, and so I went to the ER, and I wound up in room 25--what can I say except I was looking for purpose? When two different facilities recommend that I go to a nursing facility for about a month--I wasnt too thrilled, but I was beginning to get the idea that quite possibly I should do so. Having lymphedema in both legs is not helping anything. Although I must be admitting that dealing with me feelings of being accused of speaking with the devils tongue back in 1990 when I be at Tiqua Psychiatric Ward--and the staff be doing nothing to help me--at any rate me right leg is not as swollen. Now I simply need to find the key to having the left leg go down in size. One thing I definitely need to take care of first is who is going to be feeding me cat. While I be knowing that me mother would be willing to do so, I be recognizing her age and also be recognizing that I will be needing to do more and more for myself. The visiting nurse has been suggesting that I need to have me legs up over me heart. Doing that certainly makes life difficult--how do I do any work on the computer or make jewelry. Time Warner was kind enough to move me TV to me bedroom, so I can at least have me feet off the floor. Me next learning experience is to express that which I want and then to step back and let God handle it. Me own desktop computer needs to be fixed (too many programs that want to take over me computer--and I cant help but wonder what that says about me. If I were to careful of me own thoughts, to be more committed to meself, wouldnt that protect me computer from hackers? I be imagining how nice it would be to be having a laptop computer. Then if I be needing to be in bed, I could at least be making some notes. Me senior in high school I got sick a month before graduation with thyroiditis and for whatever reason when I be feeling nervous--me perception be that there be a twitching in the right elbow. The twitching seemed so difficult this morning that I felt unable to sign even me initials. Perhaps I should have started this by saying that I would be appreciating your prayers. I be feeling the need of so much help from God. I have decided that I need to give up duplicate bridge. Perhaps I have played the game too long, or perhaps all of the unhappy incidents--like me not being allowed to mentor is God telling me that it be time for me life to change. At least I have learned to follow me instincts no matter how insane those instincts may seem. That be important training. The other difficulty I be turning over to God is that I be having difficulty getting in and out of the bathtub. A few years ago a friend--I have a feeling we have the same illness or rather thought patterns--had her tub taken out and a walk-in tiled shower be put in with a bench to sit on. That would certainly make it easier to take a daily shower, wash me hair, and feel so much cleaner. Lord, I be asking for the above or something better. If I have misunderstood what it be that you be wanting me to do, please help me understand so that I can do try will, not my bill. So be it. Peace. Joy. Love. Terry Blessing
Posted on: Tue, 19 Aug 2014 06:40:26 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015