#10250 - We were in relationship for one year and perhaps, it was the most wonderful time of my life. When I was with her, I was the most happy person in the world. She understood me in every aspect. We already made so many plans about our future until the doomsday arrived when I made that decision after which she decided that atleast she cannot marry me. My world shattered when she talked about breaking up. After all, she knew that she only advised me to take that decision which ultimately backfired on us and ruined our relationship. I tried so much to convince her that we cannot end like this based only on one bad incident. She only told me that you should never sacrifice yourself for me, no matter however much you love me. Ironically, when I did the same, she changed and said that your decision has cost me a lot. When you knew this is my life, why you did not sacrifice this for me ? You became selfish, people sacrifice everything in love and you just failed with this situation. I wonder you might do the same in future. I am sorry, but I cannot see my future with you now. I just didnt know how to deal with this situation. It was the first time in life, I experienced love and she was the only one in the world whom I loved so much. Although I had many sleepless nights after this incident, I realized that there is nothing I can do now to revive my relationship. I might sound a bit awkward because I havent mentioned what actually happened between us. I cannot write it here unfortunately. For now, she only wants to be friend with me. She says that our level of trust and understanding is so strong that she will never be able to forget me. I feel the same for her but I dont know how to remove that layer of skepticism from her eyes. After 3 months of that incidence, I have finally decided to end our friendship because its just a waste of time. We were hoping for something else and its really difficult to continue as friends, atleast for me. I dont know about her. I am going to meet her for the last time tomorrow. I dont know if this is right or wrong but tomorrow is a big day for me. We used to consult each other for every single thing we did, taking each others advice and suggestions, spending such a beautiful time together but now, she wont be there with me from tomorrow. Its really difficult to imagine that situation because I simply cannot keep her out of my head. So many years later after my parents went away, I found love and it also ended in such an unfortunate manner. I just wonder that why the destination of my life is going through broken hearts... She taught me how to love and care for people. She taught me how to live. She is the most wonderful girl alive on this planet and regardless of whatever happened between us, I will always have a high respect for her because of her modesty and generosity. We were so good with each other. I hope she always remains happy and gets whatever she aspires in life. Can anyone suggest what should I do in my last meeting? Anything which she always remembers and cherishes .....Any ideas are welcome. Sorry for the long post. I have no friends here and I wanted to share all this with someone.
Posted on: Fri, 10 Oct 2014 06:03:03 +0000