#13051 I am at a boiling point. Several years ago I was used, betrayed, and publically embarrassed by someone I thought was my friend. That incident led me to getting severely depressed, I started cutting myself frequently. This led to me attempting suicide three times. After the third attempt, I gave up. A part of me wanted to continue living. (I regret this decision…) Two and a half years later… I was distant. I couldn’t trust anyone again but I was tired of being alone. Over the next few months, I tried desperately to make friends again. I pushed myself to keep going… and I was somewhat successful. These five people helped me to recover a little from the dark abyss I had sunk into. I began to come out of my shell, but it was still difficult keeping these friendships intact. During this time, two of my friends died. I slowly began to push the other friendships away again… I eventually told my parents everything that had happened. Of course, my parents think that it is just a phase and that I can just choose to be happy all the time masking all the pain from everybody. Their response has led to me questioning my entire relationship with them… I finally left Charlotte after graduating from high school. My college was a small institution at the beach in the south east. I was hoping with being a smaller school that I could forget my past in Charlotte and move on. However, I had a physically abusive roommate who was training in the ROTC. Of course my luck would have it he had anger issues. Verbally and eventually physically hurting me, I couldn’t deal with it. I reported it and nothing ever happened, I even tried moving from the room and the RA of that hall even though he knew of the physical abuse, told me he would not let me switch…. That fall semester was hell. To make matters worse, my best friend died from cancer during my fall break. I was heartbroken. . So here we are up to date. I am back in Charlotte attending UNCC. I was hoping to make friends here but I...
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 23:20:06 +0000
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