14/8/13 as written in my diary a snippet of the highs and the lows : Today the Dr visited as Adi is starting to refuse to take his medication this is due to him no longer knowing he is ill which is down to his memory and wondering why im trying to shove lots of different meds down his throat (his words) he looks at me with that cheeky grin and then at the tablets shaking his head lol we have had many tears of laughter frustration and sadness at these points the Dr is now discussing a syringe drive which scares me I dont want him on one but I dont want to leave it too late either my fears are that if he has one of these he will feel im giving up on him and people only go on these when they are about to die thats what I believed any way I shouldnt be making these life changing decisions on my own Adi and I always made decisions together I have to think for us as a family now and dont know what to do the dr sits patiently and sees the fear in my eyes Adi is sleeping unaware of all the heartache the Dr says their is no right or wrong time its down to you I start to breath again not knowing I had held my breath ok I say we will leave it abit longer I will get the meds down him some how if its the last thing I do I just want the best for him its what he deserves.
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 06:51:02 +0000
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