19th June 2013…….. 5 pm….. News was in air that FCPS result has been declared….. I hastily jumped off my bed and logged in my Facebook account. My eyes gleamed with utter happiness when I found my roll number in list of successful candidates and then clouded with tears------tears of gratitude and gramercy but wait this happiness was extremely volatile. Very next day I commenced my hunt to look for opportunities regarding post graduate training. Of course one and only name popped into my mind……….PMC Faisalabad, my parent institution but ground was pulled from right beneath my feet when they plainly refused to induct, offering logic of shortage of vacancies. Another blow to my adamancy, letting me feel numb was when every single hospital refused to induct me, making excuse of shortage of slots. Most even blatantly said in my face that why my own college is not inducting me?? I tasted dust of every hospital but all in vain……. Then came point of utter disappointment tinged with sheer anger. Tears continuously trickled down my eyes. I felt useless piece of crap and nothing else. My very own institution has disregarded me by pulling off roof of confidence and protection over my head. I could not stop thinking about how my parents having meager resources always managed to get me enrolled in one of best institutions of Punjab from the very beginning. Every drop of sweat they shed, irrespective of any occasion they always prioritized my study schedule for which relatives often used to say offensive statements, providing every protective shell so that my studies are not handicapped in anyway and to make me one efficient doctor but how am I going to repay even 1 percent of it if I’ll not be able to train myself? Even after getting education from a govt medical college, burning mid night oil and possessing excellent medical and co-curricular records, I find myself in a deep pit where there appears no way out. Graduates of KEMU, SIMS, AIMC and FJ are owned by their respective hospitals whereas we are being orphaned, not even letting to start honorary training. What shall I do with my degrees?? Are they of any use?? I do not like this feeling of helplessness and rejection. My heart is mourning. I am crying….Where I stand at fault? Why am I being punished for something done by some bad people in authority? I feel doomed……………
Posted on: Sat, 20 Jul 2013 09:05:25 +0000
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