2010 was my turning point... Yes... that year I had my miscarriage... I was at my peak of excellence in my performance... loving the things that I do, things started to fall into place... almost perfect... all geared up to work hard for something... Till I was knocked down... I felt discouraged... I felt useless... I didnt know why and who I am working so hard for... Questions kept running... I began to probe into peoples lives... I looked and analysed... I saw too many people being happy with materials but inside them; they were empty... They didnt have the love they were supposed to get... They didnt get the love they were supposed to get... No matter how they tried to fill in their lives with stories of their family and friends, jobs and status etc - they looked and in my observation, they WERE empty. Was sitting at the staircase wondering what that emptiness was... Kept looking and searching for it... till the day I was awakened... it took me 2 years later to realise the WHY & WHAT... I know if I am focused to make others happy, then my whole life wld be abt pleasing others. I know if I keep focusing on others too much, then there wld be a time when I know abt others more than I know myself... Motivators tell me that if I want to be great, I dont focus on the weak. But I begged to differ... bcoz everytime I focus on them, I became stronger and inspired... So I kept praying for reasons and answers and truly, He kept answering through the people I meet... He made me realise how important it is to constantly improve the way we think, the way we act and the way we respond... He made me realise how fragile we are... As u are reading this, I truly hope that if ur solat is one that is always missed, trust me my dear, u will never feel complete... no matter what u have. Bcoz... at the end of the day, tt is not about what u achieve thru all the hardships u hav been thru... it is wat u BECOME aft all those trials and tribulations... they are there to bring us back... ihdinasirotol mustaqim...
Posted on: Tue, 16 Sep 2014 00:29:20 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015