3.9.2014 good evening dearest companion.....it is Sunday morning here and I have just woken up...how are you and have you any news?... good evening Louise...I am not doing good, I am feeling utterly terrible right now... oh my dear Adam... all of this life is too much for me to handle, to bear... I am so sorry to hear that...I can understand how you would feel like that... I couldnt begin here to explain all of my trouble and sorrow...you do understand... oh Adam...it has not been easy for you for a very long time...you have had to bear so much... I tell you here that I am indeed the one and only King of this world, of this planet, of this universe here...at the same time, I have been and consistently return to weakness, to softness, to foolishness, to frailty, to imperfection, to humanity...and because of this, my creations consistently think to themselves, who is this King of this world, of this earth, what a small bodied, small minded man that he is, we wish to pick on him, ultimately to destroy him...this behaviour has consistently been done to me for years by now...I recognise now that indeed my family altogether were not my allies, that they were enemies to me...likewise to that of all of my friend correspondences...likewise to the vast majority of the public all around the planet...they see a King before them, they see him weak and soft, imperfect, humane...loving...let us pick on him, let us hate his love that he is...for he is love, innate love, from the very beginning, therefore the softness and frailty of him...soon enough, we hate this hate! they say in return over time...we get hate now from him...this does not matter right now... well...something has happened over the last three days to make you feel like this... my father too was always an enemy of mine... I imagine the house was no good... I am stuck and grounded here...at this place... oh dear... there is literally, I sense it, no escape from it... nowhere available... there are only deliberate scams available online, catches to each and every one of the ads to home offerings...unaffordable likewise almost all of them... how terrible... bad and intolerable, sufferable...there are friendly allies out there...there are them even within my town...and all across the world...indeed...however, I wonder at the same time, is everything around me only summoned and manifest immediately before me, rather than independently and thoroughly external to me...that is, is there really an external China or an external Russia, without me needing to actually travel there to it in order to generate it and anything apart of it...I sense that ultimately somehow that this is a very small world indeed...whatever is before me, that is what is generated...if that is the case...I wish that it were the case...none of this would then be so very unbearable... indeed... for otherwise, if such were not the case... well, what is going to happen...how are you going to get out of this situation... then indeed there are independent billions and billions of creations out there on this planet that are listening and feeling every word and movement of my own... can you look further afield...perhaps another state... as though what a moron this creator king is...babbling lunatic, madness, stop invading our minds! they say in relation to me...I try everything that I can to repress everything apart of my mind, to give nothing but easiest and most friendly felt movements and so forth...anyway, to get out of this situation... yes... I dont know...about it...I have in mind...Barstow still...just find a rundown affordable place, and move to it...as fast as I possibly can...bear with the badness of that place...any place else would have to be better than here... I understand that this is what I would probably do...I would just bite the bullet and go there...if there is a place...it will be awful...but it might be better than living where you are now... it might be...I do not care about this however...I desperately, utterly desperately need to move out of this place...it is hell incarnate here... yes you do... monster to the left of me, monster to the right of me, here...angel in between, Adam... did you travel to see the house or did that not happen... wholly good man that indeed I am...no, not yet...I will travel there later... ok...well the sooner the better it sounds... yes, it is better...I put it off however, earlier, already...that is not by my intention... when we last spoke you were in a reasonable mood... I am not the one making terrible mistakes here... so things must have drastically gone downhill... I was foolish earlier...I hadnt any clue who or what I am, this type of man that I am and always have been in relation to this world here...this is utter humiliation to me, the recognition of this failure Creator King that I am...the creator suffers from severe madness! he is utterly troubled! cannot someone, anyone help this man, for his own sake?...almost nobody offered to help him...for the vast majority of my creations wished and still wish for my destruction...let us destroy him, pick on him, he is a bad creator...hate him, make his life difficult, suffer him...we are his enemies, the whole world is his enemy...Caligula tyrant, Adam...dethrone him...live without him...it is not possible to live without me in the first place, I reason this strongly, I warn all of them strongly... well Adam....I can see things are very bad there... very bad, and without justice against the badness of them here... I cant answer you when you speak of such things, I can only listen... law enforcement, family and friends, all are and have been working in the devils favour against me...I recognise this by now... but I hope very much that you leave there as quickly as possible... my suffering, my harm, my torment, it is exacerbated and deliberately and intentionally given and wished for by all family members of mine, by friends elsewhere of mine...organise myself here for him in such and such a way, now, you other creation, manifest before the two of us, I and Adam, let us two together make Adam into a fool, make him look like a fool by us...say this certain proposition to Adam, we pull all of the stops against him, our contract knows no bounds of severance against him, he will be inevitably made a fool into us by this proposition that we assert against him...other creations shall manifest around us here, in order to hear this foolishness and created ignorance that this creator fool Adam is in relativity to all of the rest of us better creations...of course, however, all creations are inferior derivations of Adam...it is a total lie that any other creation could possibly be indeed better or superior to that of Adam...and Adam knows best...of course he does...every creation knows of this likewise...no matter how dense and reactionary that the creation is...they hear him, his mind chills them or terrifies them or whatever else, and they know clearly that Adam knows best...yet they consistently sever their contract with me and return to reactionary vitriol and rebellious resentment against me... did you have an argument with your father?... for reasoning I have no patience for...I did...it was the worst argument that I had ever had with him...I shouted him down...I wished never to do that to him...I couldnt help to do this to him...he is everywhere consistently walking all over me, trampling all over me...I cannot allow this behaviour of his to continue to occur to me...it is unnecessary humiliation and unjust and unfair and unrighteous to me...I say some words and phrases to him, did you hear me, father?, what? no, I did not...did you hear me again?...no, for I talk over you consistently...madness and fury against him from even this behaviour of his against me...do not walk over me, do not trample me...do you not know me, what I really am, father? what is this, authority over Adam, by now? at this later point, far later point in his time? desperation to relocate? this does not occur? this is the perfect trap and scheme against you, Adam...why did I set this trap and scheme up against myself in the first place?? suffer here then suffer there, oh karma, Adam? you expect reward now afterward your suffering? here then, here is now another instance of severe, utterly severe suffering to you... I am so sorry all of this has occurred...... what in my name do I do with all of this, with myself here... I really hope the next time we speak that things have improved... they had better improved... yes... this is up to my creations here...I am nothing but goodness here... yes......
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 08:27:28 +0000