#3580 Female, ktm 12 sakepachi i was in a relation with a guy, bachelors padhda padhdai we got seperated. there were several reasons behind that. tespachi i didnt want to get involved in such a thing called love.. tara euta kta pachi lagyo, dherai ignore gare, dherai reject gare, taipani usle dherai kuryo mero lagi, j garna sakthyo tei garyo.. pachi i felt i am doing wrong.. kasaile tero lagi yetro garcha bhane kina bhagchas, jasto lagyo.. which developed feelings in me for him.. later after his struggle for more than a year i accepted. during the time we were so in love, some moments were too good, that we talked about our dreams and future, making them true, imagine ourselves being together.. the time when we were out of this world.. so precious yet so meaning less. we even had a physical relationship. some moments full of arguments, jealousy, disagreements, pressure and anxiety. love was not being enough when time passed by.. we both started criticizing each other. he started feeling anxious. he started hiding things from me because he thought i would get tensed. because he hid things from me, i felt insecure. there was a time i so damn crossed the limit, i cursed him so bad and we broke up..(2 months ago) later after break up, i tried to convince him about being together again, cause i missed him, and i loved him. but, my words were like a poison for him. he said i have pushed him so far, now he is out from the other way and doesnt need me anymore. he said he doesnt have feelings for me anymore and doesnt love me but cannot control his lust over me, he had that strong urge for my body. recently he asked me to visit him and said that hes back and he wants me. after that meeting, he mentioned hed do anything i ask and i tell him to do.. i am confused what was that. i still loved him, thats why i accepted. but now still the same, neither he tries to contact me, nor replies to my messages. when i try to call, he says pachi kura garchu he replies to my long facebook messages with these days im busy, sorry remembering that day, when he asked me to come back to his life; today nothing feels like true.. he showed strong urge for us to be together, but these days, nothing feels like that. i dont know we are together or not. i was so damn in pain when i thought we are now separated, i couldnt just let him go,, now after time passed by i have become strong enough to let go, yet i love him.. but now hes on my way. neither i can ignore him, nor i can go after him. i think he expects me to keep him happy but never expresses him in any way. i be with him or not, i dont want him to be hurt, thats why if i am the reason behind his dark side, what should i do? i dont know if i could be the reason for his smile. he even has no good terms with his family. he gets irritated when ask him anything.. he voice tone signifies his irritation. all i want him is to be happy. if possible, with me.. if not, than in any way.. right now i dont want to be in his way.. i dont wana get stucked if we cant be together..
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 04:47:16 +0000
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