48 days in ICU; I never would have thought that it would be that long but way better then any other ending. I so hope that tomorrow she gets moved to the hospital. Today they actually removed the ventilator from her room.......we both waived goodbye as they wheeled it out of her room.....I am so happy for her. She has not used it in 3-4 nights. We both had a rough morning. I woke up early but could not get out of bed. I had tears as I thought about way too many things. When I arrived she was in tears too. She was asking why cant I go home today, you know how to give shots and take care of me. BROKE MY HEART to tell her not today. One of the things, I am wrestling with is what is the new normal, both short and long term. We have lived in an hour by hour then day by day world for so long I have only recently begun to ask myself..................... and I have no idea! I dont like it right now at all. Yes I am appreciative of the miracle GOD has given me but.......oh never mind I am being selfish. I am thankful too for the small gifts that seem to come each day. Our neighbor Dena Blackwell came to visit her and was in awe of her progress. Being there each day you forget that yes she has lost 65+ LBS of fluid retention. And I am so Thankful for our sweet neighbors Matt and Melissa Mahal McMenemy. Not the greatest of friends (dont mean anything negative by that statement) but somehow we have been there for each other. Thanks for the use of the mower (mine decided to die today). Also thankful for the unconditional love of our dogs (ok maybe a little sappy) but they are always there with tales wagging. Thanks for reading! BETHSTRONG!
Posted on: Tue, 27 May 2014 01:24:52 +0000
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