#5864 Cant handle it anymore.Tired of living life by how others want me to.Wherever i go I have received only rejection.I am very hurt. I have lost hope and my confidence level is zero. No one understands me and no one listens to what i have to say . Everybody hates me for one reason or the other. I am tired, these 18 years I lived alone I did not have any friends .I want to go away for a while .I think i am going mad and I am not only rejected by the social world but also by my family. They just make me realize that in childhood how obedient and quiet was I and now I behave like an Idiot . As i have become mature I have realized that I have lost my patience of waiting for someone who understands me but no one understands me. The rejection thing only led me to change myself and to get accepted by the social world I have now forgotten who am I . WHO AM I? When I ask this question to myself I dont get any answer. I have forgotten myself . Till now i have not met a person who understands me or even tried to know me or has an interest in me.Throughout my life I have been tagged as a weird kid because I could not speak as extroverts speak in front of people.I am a normal guy treated abnormally by the world, studying in SYJC. The only problem is that I am shy and a kind of Introvert and this world does not have space for me in a heavily dominated extroverted world.Like any other Guy I also have crush on someone but she does not seam to respond.No one wants to talk to me .They dont feel that I am interesting and I have something to talk to. Everyone run away from me , just because I am an introvert? Today which ever friends I have know me what I made myself to get accepted and not the real me.I know that I am not what I am showing it to the people.I believe in God and I hope he does something. My sister,brother and my parents just have one topic to talk or scold to me that you dont study, you dont get good marks, you are short tempered, you dont know how to behave with your siblings blah blah blah.......In school I was tricked by my so called best friend which ended up involving police. Because of my friends trick I got ragged ,bullied , hit by my own classmates. that guy took undue advantage of my trust on him.last year I read a quote that forgive others without receiving an apology makes you happier. I have forgiven them and also my ex-best friend.But till now I havent come across someone who understands me and is there whenever i need him/her.Girls want a guy who is spontaneous and can make her laugh instantly without knowing her . I can also make people laugh but only after I have known them for a while.This is why they dont wanna meet me and say that you are boring.Nowadays They just ignore me.No one knows how much it hurts inside and it also depresses you a lot.Whenever I try to give myself some sympathy I feel that I am dong wrong and I feel that I dont wanna be like those people who can do anything to get attention from their social circle.In the social world people want their friends to be like some politician who speaks a lot but does a little. They just want someone who attracts popularity by speaking.I feel so lonely inside and I dont have any patience left to wait till the world accepts me.I dont know how but I need to revive myself and find myself that who am I.Does being a introvert and shy personality a criminal offense as the world treats me like i dont have any right to exist. I just wanna say that I love being around my best friends but sadly I dont have any of them.Whenever I see a group enjoying their college days , going to movies,dating,teasing etc. all the fun. I feel that I am missing out on the fun but I dont have anyone with whom I can enjoy. I tried my best to make friends but there is no one to accept me as I am . SORRY FOR SUCH A LONG CONFESSION Admins View: Guess what? You just poured your feelings out in front of a 4800+ audience! And you spoke well! But but but.. you havent even mentioned a single good quality of yours. POINT TO BE NOTED! I guess YOU yourself are just putting yourself down more than others.. Trust me, I understand! :) I am here. You could inbox whenever you wish to, IF YOU WISH TO! Choice is yours! :) ab thoda has bhi do yaar :* -Admin Laavaris.
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 13:56:18 +0000
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