6704 days ago at 6pm CST Amanda and I broke tradition. We were scheduled to be married at 7pm. However, at 6pm on October 8th 1999 in a smaller chapel attached to the Presbyterian Church on West Main street in Lebanon Amy Dennis Waggoner looked at me and said Your Bride Awaits. In that room turned in such a way that i could only see her backside (some of you are laughing cause you know that story) was my soon to be bride! She heard the creak of the old wooden door and slightly turned. I walked in and there stood Amanda Petty literally in all her glory! Our eyes met and i cried at the beauty that was before me. I walked the aisle just anticipating that the dream would soon end and i would wake up but alas, like wine, it has only become infinitely better with time. Thursday December, 11th 2014 my mom brought me the mail that had been piling up at home. On top was a white mailer bag and like any man-child I instantly mashed on the bag! Clothing...I knew what it was! I opened the bag and found a beautiful Pink hand made button down from Christy Stone. I laid it across Amanda while she lay in bed. My mom Kathy said shes beautiful! I agreed. We left it there for a moment and as I began to fold it Amanda awakened. I said look baby, your Christmas gift is here. I held it up and showed her the shirt. Her eyes honed in and increased slightly in size and she humphed. You know the sound! The humph was not a sign of rejection but a sound of acceptance! Immediately after the humph I saw movement under her covers. I pulled those back and wouldnt you know it....our girl was giving us two thumbs up! Thats as far as she could lift her hands and Im so glad we saw that. In other words, she loved it! Jennifer Driver arrived and during this time i showed her the gift. I guess she sensed how much I wanted Amanda to be able to wear it. Ponytail looked at me and said you want her in dont you I said that would be great! She left and came back with a care partner. I left as they got my bride dressed. Just as Amy Waggoner had done 6704 days ago Jennifer opened the door and said shes ready. I walked in and there was my girl laying in bed and looking just as beautiful, if not more, than she did on our wedding day. I stood, looked and took in the moment just as I had 15 years before. I fell on my knees beside her, took her hands and begin to weep while telling her how much I loved her and how amazing the last 18 years had been. Yesterday, Amanda began to bleed internally. Yesterday, Amanda had drastic changes that warrented me bringing the boys in probably for the last time. Amanda has been near comatose state for 48 hours and has declined little by little each hour. The nurse that was here saw the signs as well and told us that it would be a good idea to begin to prepare for my brides passing. We came into this place only expecting 3 days and today was number 15. As we were helping her turn today she woke up and moaned out loud. All she could say was hurt,hurt,hurt. As we called for the nurse she looked at us and said Im ready to go. We assured her that was perfectly ok! Tonight her breathing is very laboured. Tonight Im scared to even sleep. Tonight they have had to adjust her pain meds to make her as peaceful and comfortable as possible. Tonight will be long. My friend Shauna says I need to sleep and she is right. Maybe a catnap here or there. We shall see. Im thankful as always for another day but I cant stand her hurting. I know that there is a door that she is close to walking through and I know there is a face that she is about to see. That face will put all our fairy tales to shame, even my own thats been 18 years in the making.
Posted on: Sat, 13 Dec 2014 05:42:07 +0000
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