8:30 pm, Mom is in bed, the dishes are in the washer. I didnt ride a single horse. I just spent time with my Husband and my mother. it was a good day. We shopped. We planted flowers. We hung out on the porch. we ate wonderful food and talked about nothing important. I know I could not live this way forever, but for today, it was perfect. I am going to learn to cut back. I have been pushing too hard. some horses will have to leave to make room for my family. and for me. I was on the verge of going over the edge and into serious exhaustion. Now I see that I do need time to be human. I know that some of my students will not appreciate that I am less available - and I am declaring that from 6-7 pm is the Jack and Monica hour - and I will turn off my phone and ask people NOT to come ask me questions unless someone is bleeding to death! But maybe, Just MAYBE, I can find a way to do enough without Killing myself. And for now, I am enjoying making my Mom happy. in lots of little ways. from having candies and crackers around, to sketching and talking and watching birds. I am making TIME for her - to be with her. That wont be an option soon, so now is the time to make time. and maybe now is the time to slow down just a little. And cut out what isnt totally necessary. In the end, it will all be a little better.
Posted on: Thu, 10 Apr 2014 03:43:04 +0000
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