...#92! Continues... Lonwabo pulled me to him and got us out of the bathroom. He just shot someone, right in front of my eyes. He closed the bathroom door and then he slid down the wall and sat on the floor, partly because he was still drunk. I sat down next to him and he put my head on his chest... I was crying and shaking... Him: Im sorry... I couldnt speak... My mind was replaying what just happened, and what happened back then with Lonwabos dad and all those men... I couldnt take it anymore... I started sobbing uncontrollably like the time it was my mothers funeral. Lonwabo: Im sorry I wasnt there to protect you... As I always, I failed you. If I had... If I had gotten up a minute later it would have been two late... I just carried on crying... We sat for a while on the floor until I started getting sleepy from the crying... He was sobering up. Me: is he dead? Lonwabo nodded. Him: I shot him right in his heart. Me: is he your friend? Him: used to be, yes. I need to dispose of the body. We cant just leave him lying there. He got up and helped me up, then told me to sit in the lounge while he did what he had to do. After about 2 hours, I had fallen asleep on the couch, he woke me up. Him: masambe... Everything is cleaned. I got up and went to the car and Lonwabo locked and threw the key inside through the slightly open window. He came to the car and started driving. We got to the hotel and I headed straight for the bath, pouring in bath salts. I filled the water almost to the brim and got in the bubble bath. I washed first, then I just sat there... Trying to clear my mind of what happened... Lonwabo came in the bathroom and sat on the closed toilet seat. He put his elbows on his legs and put his face in his hands. Him: Im sorry I failed to protect you. Me: you didnt. You were drunk, but atleast you came. Him: I shouldnt have gotten that drunk ndihamba nawe. Me: well, you did. Him: no, I should be protecting you... I kept quiet. Him: I just spoiled our weekend, didnt I? I still kept quiet until the silence was uncomfortable. Him: cela ungena nawe. He was busy undressing then got in the bath with me, sitting at the other end. I put my legs on top of his. We both sat in silence until the water started getting cold. I got out, ndathambisa then got into my pjs and crawled into bed. He followed a few minutes after... He shifted closer to me since I had my back to him, and put his arm on my waist. Me: cela ungandbambi. His arm stiffened then he removed it. Him: baby, Im sorry nyani. If there was a way for me to fix it, I would. Id turn back the hands of time and do everything right this time... And I mean EVERYTHING since the time I first laid my eyes on you... Id do things the way they were supposed to be done and maybe we wouldnt be in this kinda relationship. Maybe youd be happy with me. Me: would you have stopped le life yakho yobugintsa? He kept quiet and I turned around to look at him. Me: would you have stopped it, Lonwabo? If you had the chance to, ungayeka? Him: baby, its the only life I know. Me: no! You have a job. Him: ewe, a job. Its not a career! Me: then make a career out of it. Him: I cant just walk out on my life and I cant just undo things that easily. Ive gotten into a lot, I know a lot and Ive done a lot. I cant just up and leave this life.. Me: not even for me? Him: If I could, maybe I would... But, right now andkwazi... Not with everything thats going on. I nodded and then turned around again. He pulled me to lie on my back and then squatted on top of me. Him: Im sorry I put you through all the bullshit you went through. I just huffed and sighed. Him: I mean it when I say Id do it all over again if I could... I kept quiet still. He took my hands and held them in his. Him: Ive taken you for granted and its time I fix that... Thats why were on this weekend away... To get a fresh start... Me: a weekend away wont take away what Ive been through. Him: I know.. And I dont want it to... But, maybe if we work on our relationship and get it right, then well deal with our past issues together. I just wanna make things right with you... I want you to feel the love that I have in my heart for you... I want you to feel safe with me... To know you can count on me because you mean the world to me... Me: you mean that? I was touched by his speech. Hes really trying and I appreciate the effort.... But how long will it last? He kissed my fingers then lingered on my left ring finger... He looked up at me with a sincere smile and a hint of excitement in his mood... His lips were still lingering on finger, his warm breathe sending sensual chills down my spine... He moved his lips from my finger then locked his fingers with mine and smiled at me, nervously... After a while of staring into each others eyes...he finally spoke... marry me...
Posted on: Tue, 15 Oct 2013 17:43:05 +0000
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