A little creepy story The night my uncle died.. I woke up to this song in my.head. I had no idea what song it was bcuz I had never heard.it before. I kept picturing my Aunt Linda and her younger face. Her hands and her eyes. I was a lil creeepered out. I thought something had to have happened to her..... But. It was just a feeling so I shook it off and got up to go do the bathroom thing when... it was there that I also had that familiar ringing in my ear of a spook near by trying to communicate. I felt cold and scared but tired so I went back to sleep as it was like 3 in the morning or something.... By noon that day, his daughter had called to let me know that my.uncle had just died, really early that morning. I wasnt even aware he had been in the hospital so this crippled me with grief and I fell to the floor. I was ready for news about my Aunt...not him! :( I was in my living room and my radio turned onto that song that I had heard in the early hours of that morning. stuck in my head the whole morning, now playing in person. So I googled the lyrics and listened to the song on YouTube about a bajillion times and cried..... I knew who the spook was that was trying to communicate with me that day and Im so blessed that I was there to receive the messages he had to share. He says it all in this song. Perfectly. He misses us... but man is he happily soaring pain free and burden free where hes at now. :).. this song still cripples me with emotion to this day but I still listen to it about every single day that I can stand it in October in his honor. This year ...today is the first day Ive been able to play it. ...I miss him. So bad. Ive needed his stable stern awesome ways this past year so many times, that Ive lost my damn mind trying to figure out other ways of coping...... I feel him in spirit and I know hes never away.. but I could really go for one of his super duper awesome Santa clausesque happy as heck, jolly hugs to make it alllllllll all better again. Just for me. Just for a day. A day spent watching the history and discovery channel together while watching all those old western movies on the commercials. Haha. :) .. just one calm and stable day. He was essentially that strong stern and stable male presense in my life. I didnt really grow up in stability and him at his house in his one or the other two favorite spots in the house. seated at the head of his dining room table or at the entrance to the family room... there he always was and had been through so many years as a scared or confused child, growing up in the way I had. Life was a little tough.... This man was sort of my home base just to know that no matter how chaotic my.life would feel or be... his presense in middleville kept me grounded for whatever reason... it just worked that way. And it was and felt right and okay as long as I knew he was there. Anyway... I really respected and loved my uncle Richard dick a lot. And this song makes me cry every time like a little baby still, even after all these years I still cant play this song without so many emotions falling out of my eyesballs... but.. I guess that just means this man was really a super wonderful great man, worthy of all my emotions. So... here is to you my second daddy from the same Mrs. Hehe. I love you and will honor your memory and soul here on earth as best I can until the day we meet again. :) huggggggggs whereever you are.
Posted on: Mon, 27 Oct 2014 16:22:08 +0000
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