A lot of babies are being born, and I am so thankful for their health and smooth delivery. But I am am struggling. I am trying to not ask the Lord why. Even So, I fail on that. It is a miracle that babies come out healthy for the babies birth is so precarious.I see premies that hold on for dear life and make it and come through healthy. The Lord could have completely healed Malachi, but he did not and I have to reconcile that thought and put it before the Lord. I dont want to hear, oh but he is so happy and God gave him to you for a reason and he is special he is going to do great things. I know that and I believe that. Those are good things to say to me, but not at this moment. Ask any mom with a disabled child, and they will say that they cant imagine their kids any different. But they also imagine their kids being able to do what other healthy kids are able to do. Any praying mom, prays to God that their newborn will be healthy and when they see a disabled child thank the Lord that their kids are healthy. I think that way with Ellis and Evangeline. I see Malachi look at other kids and his sister and I know he wants to participate in walking and running. I se his pouty face when I talk about him sitting and walking. I see the question in his eyes, I wish I can do that. You all dont need to say anything, just give me a hug, pray for us. Pray that we raise the funds to get to Mexico, I am exhausted of raising funds to go...its hard. Dont be sorry for me or pity me, just pray for me please.
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 18:52:25 +0000
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