ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS ... These days I begging to DWEEL more on who is my real friend and who are the fake ones. Most time in Life we say or think some certain people are our friend but to be honest,they are not. We choose them but they never see us as one. You call,text and message them but some will not even acknowledge your gesture but think you need a help from them . Its so painful that people can easily read meaning into your good heart ,that either you need a favor from them or you are up to something. Yes some may CLIAM they are very busy,the most annoying one is when you show a heart of kindness and they take it otherwise ,some may not even say thank you or call your attention to it but they would choose to discuss it with another friend I REALY want to mind mine use of words I could have say gossip about you behind your back. To me I think once in a while one need a real assisment of one activities not to become a parasite on some certain people thinking you two are friends. During a private mass I had with a priest yesterday, he Remind me of this lenting period as a time to fast and reflect on life and little did I ask my self of some certain questions , Who am I to my family Who am I to my friends Who am I to my community Who am I to my colleagues And who am I to this group? Who am I to you? After the mass,I take a time out alone to reevaluate my being .This made me check my inbox ,sent SMS ,email and call log and much I discover how many people I have send greetings and prayers to very often and who has never or for once acknowledge my gesture then I see reason why one need to take a break from certain way of friendship before people will start to see you for who you are not. But yet the more I have promise to de friend most of my said to be friends on my contact the little I have send some other message to check on some. What is REALY happening with me is the next question ? Is it that I have no job? Is it that I am who they say I am? Is it that I have no principle ? What is God instruction on love? What is our responsibilities as a good niegbours towards each others? When should one draw the lines between been nice and been a parasite. So many question to ask but ,whom shall provide answer to them,but for the main time I think it will be wise Instead of a wonderful masqurade to fall while dancing on d stage,let it dance badly out of stage. I am very sorry if you could not find me on your list of contact or if you dont get my frequent message or see me frequently online ,desperate measure call for desperate action. To end this, I must strongly apologize to all those whom I have constantly invade their privacy either with my calls,SMS,inbox message or write up and comments, pls kindly forgive me,I am not trying to prove too know or been a pest but just a little bit of who I am. Am very sorry and promise to try as much as I could not to do that again and to those who may have a sincere heart but REALY busy am sorry such is life . Pls this post is not about any body in particular but just the way my mind works. Do have a blessed day in your place of work. And dont forget to pray for me at a time like this.
Posted on: Tue, 18 Mar 2014 04:34:48 +0000
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