Absence vs. Silence Complimenting passage Psalm 139:7-12 Absence - when the presence of someone is gone or void, not found in a place Silence - When someone is present, yet not vocal in the events happening My theology teaches me that You are everywhere My heart ask where were you This has been the reoccurring process as I reflect, relive and process through the loss of Gavin I feel like God was absent I know that He was not The reasons why I feel like this: Gavin is gone Everything was quiet, no answers to the heart wrenching pleas I made Heartache Loss I have to ask myself then, what did/do I think it would look like for God to have been present? Gavin would still be here There would be answers There would be no loss I feel like God was absent because my desires and hopes were not met I wanted the loud, knight in shining armor God, that rescues and gives me the desires of my heart (isnt that what we are so often told?) God was not absent His desires were different than mine He was silent Our society has a poor view of silence It is often viewed as weak, less powerful We dont like it because it is mysterious, unknown We dont know what to do with it Silence has a way of forcing you to focus on the situation No distractions To really pay attention to what is going on Silence is telling In the quiet the heart is revealed Pain is felt, not as easily ignored Reality is seen Gods ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts The silence forces me to look into the depths of this verse Silence gives me the opportunity to look at the desires in my hand and compare them with the plans in His Silence makes me surrender Silence makes me yield God was not absent He was silently asking me to yield I didnt want to, I still dont even writing this I dont understand Maybe i never will In suffering loss we see the reality of the effects of sin The reality that this world is broken and in need of saving Silence does not mean that God does not mourn If we are truly made in His image, then God mourns You see this in the story of Jesus and Lazarus Jesus wept And in Silence Jesus weeps with me In silence He comforts me In silence He reveals Himself to me In silence there is hope That He is there Even if it is not in the ways we desire, or have been taught to expect Now I sit in silence Sometimes crying Sometimes smiling at the memories of my friend Yet always surrendering, yielding Learning a new way to live Seeing the depths of His plan I dont always like it I pray for faith to trust it I pray for strength to walk it I pray for you When you will be asked to endure silence That you would not mistake it for absence May God bless you and keep you May He cause his face to shine upon you and give you peace Love you Gavin, Wendy, Garrett, Jenna, Randy and Shawn.
Posted on: Mon, 27 Oct 2014 15:39:23 +0000
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