Admittedly, Im new to the relying upon and trusting upon God or at least its been a slightly remote thing up until Phils cancer diagnoses. Time and time again, a deeply cherished friend has not so much reminded me to let go and let God, but rather pointing out the good amongst the scary and the painful. This morning as I spent time in our flower bed talking to Mary (my beautiful mothers day gift) I felt such peace amongst the uncertainty and the air had such a peaceful and beautiful smell - I wasnt in much of a hurry to leave despite my urgency to spend time with Phil. Sometimes we dont often see the results of such a feeling, but upon arrival at the hospital Phils nurse said she was asked to page the doctor as soon as I got here - the bogeyman feeling could have shown up, but instead a sense of something else that I couldnt describe was there instead. They have consulted with UofW and there isnt a consensus of the diagnoses on the infection in Phils brain. So there is some consultation, collaborating and reviewing Phils records and tests. It may well be that we will be headed for Seattle sooner rather than later. I havent figured out the details that this would entail for our family, but the one certainty is the glimmer of real hope visited Phils room this morning and for that Im (and our sons are and I realize so many others are too) beyond hopeful and with that there is this sense of peace with the way this is moving for Phil (and us) - the details we will figure out as we go...it is the opportunity to simply let go and let God - rely and trust in His love and goodness among the scary and the uncertainty - knowing that He will uplift and carry us through this. youtube/watch?v=Ype1xE0wzsg
Posted on: Sun, 05 Oct 2014 23:20:46 +0000
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