After the Ministry of Interior brought a full SWAT force to my solitary confinement cell and carried me blindfolded to another prison cell where I was told I was going to die, I sat in my wheelchair in the middle of the cell and started praying. I was pleading with God. This situation cant get any worse, no water for over 20 days, my body is weak, and I have been kidnapped to an unknown location and have no idea what was going to happen to me next. This was definitely the weakest I have been during the biggest test of my life, I thought to myself, I cant back down. It was almost dawn time and it was the first day of Ramadan. I started saying my prayers and came across a verse that I recite everyday, the last verse of the 2nd chapter, but this time I stopped to contemplate it as I internalized on the hardship I was facing. God says in the beginning of the verse, God does not burden a soul more than it can bear.. This was fact, but God continues with a prayer to end the verse, Our God, do not burden us with more than we can handle/bear.. Why is it that Allah guarantees us in the beginning of the verse that we will not be burdened with more than we can handle, yet He pushes us to a state where we have to plea with him not to burden us beyond our capacity?? That made no sense to me. I sat there puzzled as I pondered! Then I decided to read on, Our God, excuse our faults, forgive our sins and accept our repentance, indeed You are our protector, so grant us victory.. Aha, the answer was right there! Gods wisdom in inflicting hardships/trials is to clean the slate that is full of sins, which weighs us down, that is why we feel we have reached our limit, that we can no longer bear any more stress/hardship. He wants us stronger and better, so He puts us through these hardships to truly test our strength, and to form new capacities and limits. He pushes us to the point of learning that indeed He alone knows how strong we can be if we persevere, believe, and trust in his wisdom, mercy, strength and protection! And just like that I felt invincible, with that realization Subhanallah, Allahs peace, blessings and tranquility entered my heart. I felt that no army/police force can harm me, I was in Gods Mercy and protection... -Soltan relaying the story of his forceful removal to unknown location during the last family visit
Posted on: Thu, 10 Jul 2014 03:15:57 +0000
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