Afternoon my freaks and friends, Spent some time reflecting on things today and I have made one discovery about myself. I struggle to figure out why I have such a hard time trusting people and then I realized there is a good chance it can be attributed to the fact that I am married to a pathological liar, all be it a missing one. Well at least that is what the results of his psych evaluation identified, so I have to accept it as true as I am not a specialist in the field of psychology like those at the psychiatric facility he stayed at. Mixing vodka and Drano into his own special cocktail after his lies caught up with him set him back a bit I guess. I wonder it I would find it easier to trust others if those I trusted in the past did not abuse the trust to the extremes they did. I did know that they were abusing my trust, but prayed that they would see the hurt, and humiliation their behaviour was causing me and stop. I put up with it because I cared for some of them and loved the others, and thought they felt the same way, but just had low standards, self-esteem, a lack of ethics, and bad manners. I was wrong, they were just mean spirited and selfish. I am trying to move on now, and it is not as easy as it would sound due to the ghosts of the past. One hurdle at a time and all will work out well in the end.
Posted on: Sun, 09 Feb 2014 21:42:18 +0000
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