Allow me to be transparent on tonight….I pray this help someone else!!! I sat in the building week after week with hurt, anger , the spirit of rejection , in bondage and still satisfying my flesh No matter how many times I entered the building I went in with this baggage and returned back out with the same baggage .…. As time went on I begin to question this God that everyone was feeling and wondering why I couldn’t feel HIM moving in me like others…Well here is the answer because I didn’t have a “RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM‘ I had not surrendered my all to HIM…I gave HIM some of ME but not ALL of ME… God wanted more than just my LIP SERVICE HE wanted my HEART… In my mind I felt like going to the building was enough to get me by didn’t have a prayer life, no desire to read (only took the preacher at their word) and it became clearer that I didn’t know HIM I knew of HIM…( I had a form of godliness but denying the power thereof). As time passed sitting in the building I ended up getting pregnant not to mention that came with more hurt and rejection ( still hadn’t made up my mind to serve God with my all) the negative remarks and comments begin to come from every angle which lead to deeper hurt, anger, and being further rejected…Had no idea at the time of WHO I WAS WHOSE I WAS AND DIDN’T KNOW MY IDENTITY!!! I eventually left the building which may seem like a bad thing to some but it was a blessing for me (Not even realizing that God had a plan and a purpose and that even in the midst of it all it was working together for my good) because it helped me to build a relationship with GOD to know HIM for myself and not just know of HIM…During this time in my wilderness experience a prayer life with GOD was established and I begin to read the Word of GOD I begin to learn of HIS Characteristics and my mind begin to be Renewed Daily ….. It no longer was dead letters on a page but it became REAL to ME!!!… The more I gave to GOD the more hurt, pain, anger & rejection HE delivered and healed me from!!! Years later God has turned this Mess into a Message He used my stumbling blocks as stepping stones, Man said I wasn’t qualified because of my PAST BUT God said HE Qualified ME and Stamped His Seal of Approval on My Life!!
Posted on: Tue, 29 Oct 2013 04:02:54 +0000
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