Alright, its time for me to get a few things perfectly clear & straightened out. I dont really care who reads or voices their opinion on it. Im not doing this for me, Im doing this for myself. So here it goes. Most of you know, not by my choice, but from he say she say. Ive struggled w/ the disease of addiction for more or less a year now. Pain pills are my thing, have I tried other opiates? Yes. Am I on or do I do Heroin? No. I HAVE asked people for money, a lot of you for money due to my addiction. Which in turn, havent paid a lot of you back. Ive been an awful person, friend, daughter, sister, etc. But guess what, IM GETTING HELP. Rock bottom wasnt & isnt so friendly, & unfortunately I had to hit that in order for me to suck my pride up to actually get help. Most of you have heard rumors about my past 3 year relationship. It was a very abusive, not only PHYSICALLY, but emotionally, & mentally relationship. It was the most toxic, unhappy relationship that I have encountered. I am finally away from that & for the first time in 3 years, I can begin to move on happily. Am I upset & hurt? Yes. Especially since my finding out of it ending due to another persons attention. But for the first time, I can lift my head up & carry on. I know in my heart that I DESERVE to be happy & not beat down, literally. Im so happy for myself. In all honesty. Im getting help & doing rather well w/ it in my opinion, & I am FINALLY out of something that I have wanted to be out of for a year now. Its time for me, & me ONLY to focus on MYSELF & spread my wings to make a better life for myself. I couldnt be happier. I have a few select friends that are there for me, a few family members, & a few others to help & stand w/ me through this. So honestly, you all can talk all your shit, talk bad about me, accuse me of things, or throw things in my face. Just know... Im HAPPY & my life is changing. Nothing that ANY of you do or say can come in between me, my sobriety, my changing, or my HAPPINESS. So go ahead & try... at least this status will defend me for you!
Posted on: Thu, 24 Oct 2013 15:17:22 +0000