Alright...so I guess were doing this again. I gotta admit I feel like an idiot for letting him back into our lives cause not only does it leave me dumbfounded and confused...but its a coup de grace to the ego. I still know Im worthy of better though. But I guess what hurts the most are how the kids are affected and how mindless and selfish this is. Sylvia doesnt have a relationship with her real dad and so shes seeing the only father shes ever known walk out on her again...Victor craves the attention of male figure just so he can emulate anything resembling a man and Kiersten....the hardest one to get through to let him in and she gave him a piece of her heart only for it to all be in vain. I feel like such a failure because I shouldve known better. I shouldve protected them better. Then theres Kelli. Poor kid. Shes forever looking for a mother that she can call her own and I opened my heart to her and now shes being ripped away. She said mom I wanna stay...... I tried so hard to keep my tears in check but my right eye is a rebel as it welled with tears. Will she EVER have stability? God knows. I just hope He gives His angels charge over her and protects her through life. Thats all I can do. Im out of reach. We all know I tried. I guess at the end of the day thats all that matters. He wants a robot to command. I want love. Guess those two dont mix well.
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 17:21:30 +0000
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