An update on Terry…he was released from the hospital this afternoon and we are finally home. This past week has been a blur and somewhat like a bad dream that you wake up in the middle of and wonder whether it was real or imagined. He is doing better than he was last Saturday when he was admitted but is nowhere near being back to normal and where I find myself stressing if ‘normal’ will ever be ‘normal’ again as we knew it prior to this. He is handling all this amazingly well…he was never a person to stress out on stuff as opposed to me , the worry person. Today was one of the worst days for me and forgive me for posting sad stuff here, but my way of venting and releasing and trying to heal…..It should be a HAPPY DAY….TERRY AND I ARE GOING HOME…and then the tears started to roll and have on and off all day since the news…..Terry is thrilled cause he is getting out of the hospital and going home…..and I am realizing that he isn’t well BUT THEY ARE SENDING HIM HOME………A hospital is where you go when your sick…they fix you up and send you home when your well or almost well…..BUT with cancer they don’t send you home well again….cause they can’t keep you till your well again or you just might NEVER leave…hard to even explain the feeling…just wish I had my ‘old terry’ back…yet knowing that our lives have changed forever…we will get thru this…God will take us thru this…just so hard…The ‘c’ word has always been a scary thing….now I can truly feel what those that have lived thru it or had family members with it have felt……………..
Posted on: Fri, 15 Nov 2013 02:20:40 +0000