Anxiety that my body will grow old and fall out from under me, before I can become a rapper and get cosmetic surgery, is crippling me mentally, and now physically. Message for Dr. Phil in a YouTube video youtu.be/y7VvVHLzf8Q I had a stroke on Thanksgiving Day, 2013, after I had quit selling my soul for good looks, fame, and my own home. I cannot rap quite like I used to before the stroke and before when I sold my soul. I have suddenly gone from taking 3 prescription meds , then 4, and now to 8 a day. I am a cash cow to the medical establishment. I am so grateful for Medicare and Medicaid. Also, after that, I began to slowly age. Before, when I was selling my soul, I looked 27. Fast forward 3 months later I look 35. Wrinkle marks are starting to appear on my face. My right-eye vision begin to diminish a few months before my stroke. This has led to headaches on my right side temple and behind my right eye. I think Ill sell my soul again, and at the same time, commit my future to God. I want what I lost after I stopped selling my soul. youtu.be/B6VTTXmDye0 - in this video is what I do every other day. I sit out and panhandle. I get SSI and disability, but I got rent and bills. I REFUSE to live from paycheck to paycheck! I got restaurants that feed me free four nights a week. Ive stolen bikes from WalMart, even stolen my prescription meds and batteries for my video camera, anything to eliminate as much overhead as I can. Also, since I quit selling my soul, my health has begun rapidly getting worse. I now have muscle spasms and have been diagnosed with Radiculopathy. Actually, I think I had this since 1995. In 2009 my right arm began hanging limply by my side. I want to be a rapper and get money for cosmetic surgery, and now for laser back spine surgery to cure my radiculopathy, maybe even stem cells to look and feel young again. I am 41. I do not believe in a God of pure love. God delights in punishing the evil, and His divine hatred for sinners in hell is infinite. I am always depressed. I think I will sell my soul again, and put my life in Gods hands. I hope He will give me a few years of fame, good looks, and success, and then strike me down viciously and make me repent and turn to Him and serve Him so I can go to Heaven hen I die. I a willing to suffer excruciatingly for those few years of fulfilling my deepest dream to be good looking and famous, and to own the house @ 1410 Farmgate Road where I spent the first 22 years of my childhood. Dr. Oz, can stem cells, or skin cells, restore my vision to 20 / 10 like it was no too long ago? Can it restore the lost baby fat and collagen in my face to fill up my new age wrinkles / marks, whatever? Can it restore the nerve damage that has screwed up the right side of my body? Can I ever rap again?
Posted on: Sun, 16 Mar 2014 20:37:41 +0000
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