Anyway, hello to everyone on my facebook. Idk who some of you are but if you do follow my posts and have asked me questions or fr advice on my askfm before, i hope i did help. Ive a question thts been affecting me fr quite some time as well. And i want a fair and general answer so what better place to ask it than online where everyone dares to be honest regardless of how harsh it is (: I know how bad my reputation was amongst a handful of people and how when those people hear my name or anything about me, oh the endless gossiping and insults really fly. 😂 i also know that i have friends whos known me since I was a kid and what Im really like, people that I can openly talk about everything with. People who tell me things like babe seriously just remove your bella choi account lah aiyo your time of basking in the spotlight is over okay, people who knows bella choi is not even my real name and cringes when fake friends run up to me screaming OMG MY BABE BELLA CHOI I MISSED YOU SO MUCHHHH ShannyJingxuan Hahaa especially you my lovely babe 😘 I also know how it was mostly because of my own actions and how I presented myself online before that got me alot of negative attention. Anyway back to the point. Some people out there can really say the nastiest things. And by nasty, i mean NASTY. Horrible, disgusting crap that can make a person feel absolutely worthless. (Im sorry to bring this up, im saying this with utmost respect) I was involved in a car accident earlier this march, where two of my friends passed away. I was not close with any of them, so i did not know much about them. Till today. I dont know how, or why some people out there can actually think this way. They question why Im alive. Like seriously bella choi should have been the one that died omg why wasnt it (___) who survived they deserve to live more than she does. I was extremely affected by this for a very long time but ive never said a thing because I too questioned myself about why it wasnt me died. Not anymore. Ive had enough of this, I love myself and I know how much Im worth, I know I WOULD NEVER say such a thing about someone and I WILL NOT let anyone say such a thing to me as well. First off. It was an accident. The sooner you (by you Im referring to those who gave their unneeded disgusting opinions) learn to accept that, the better. It is not anyone of the victims fault that it happened. And it is not to be questioned. Secondly, you are in no position to say that i deserve to die. One reason being I DO NOT KNOW ANY OF YOU. Regardless of whatever youve heard about me, how badly you think of me, how close you were to either of the victims (im apologize for mentioning them). You have no rights to say that I deserve to die more than they did. Ive been through my own hardships in my life, ive made mistakes, ive hurt people, ive lied, ive done so many wrong things. So have YOU. So has everyone else. No one is perfect but as humans I firmly believe that we are all equal. I would NEVER wish death upon anyone regardless of whatever theyve done to me. And it is disgusting of YOU to question my existence. Grow a conscience and grow up. The funniest thing is you go around telling this to everyone but me, when its about me. Are you f-ing kidding me? I know how devastating it is to lose people that you love. And I understand that maybe some of you said these things out of a moment of devastation/anger, and thats okay. I would not blame you. Lastly, im sorry if I come off as arrogant prideful or ignorant. The main purpose of this status is to get whatever ive been feeling off my chest and to stand up for myself. I must say that it took me a long time to finally have the courage to defend myself over this matter and to understand that I deserve to live just as much as every other human being does.
Posted on: Mon, 24 Nov 2014 23:16:23 +0000