Apparently I am really tired because I finally mustered up enough energy to write a post and it was a long one.. and then BOOM, deleted by accident. Sigh! I will try to keep this one shorter - First and foremost I apologize that I struggled to maintain my composure on stage during the finals. It was by no means meant to be offensive to the other competitors. I was thrilled and honored to step on stage with 6 of the finest, most beautiful tall bikini girls in NS. Most of you wouldnt expect that since developing an anxiety/panic disorder over a year ago, I struggle greatly when it comes to holding back my emotions. I cry at the doctor, at the bank, in meetings, when customers get upset with me, when I get stressed...etc. So I could only hold back so long before I just had to let it go. So again I apologize, I just have a tough time controlling my emotions and it was by no means meant to be cocky, or arrogant or whatever else anyone may think of me. I try my best to support and provide positive energy so it was very difficult to see myself that way and is something I will continue to work on improving. Huge thank you to Andrew McInroy who came to give me some tough love and words of encouragement after the show, and Matt Ryan as well for coming out to cheer me up and console me (sorry Matt, I was just trying not to cry on your nice fancy shirt, lol). I look up to both of you immensely as sources of knowledge, and Matt is has been a pleasure getting to know you better these past few months
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 02:49:14 +0000
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