As I sit here beside you I reflect on a lifetime of happiness. I know you are in pain but even still you are just as beautiful as ever. It really hurts me to see you lie in pain. This has got to be the hardest thing ever to deal with. All my life I have never worried about anything nor had any fears. Not because of me, but because of you. Before I ever heard of a superman comic I had already met her. I was tripped out when they chose a man to play you. As I remember my whole life superman was a woman. She goes by the name of Shawn Brown. You are truly amazing and Im glad I have had you in my life. I know what the doctors say but I dont care. I know of a different doctor who has the final say so. As I told you we will fight this battle till the very end. I will never leave your side. Whether you have 2 days or 1000 days we are going to live and enjoy our lives together. Im sorry moma. But here comes that spoiled little boy you created. Im being selfish here and I cant help it. I refuse to lose you or give up on you. That will NEVER happen. You are my world and I do not know what Id do without you. Enough of that talk because you are a warrior and I know you will fight your hardest. I know you are down and out but you have so many people who love and care for you. Your room has been filled with people who love and care for you. I felt it was a miracle for you to see Ms. Shari today. The look on your face was priceless. Like all the pain went away for that brief moment in time. I thank Sharon and Ana for allowing that to happen. I know you tell me not to cry moma but how can I not? How can I hold these tears in? Im sorry, I cant. To know you are in pain tears me up. You have always been the liveliest person so to see you like this hurts. I wish you could open your mouth and allow me to take on all your pain. Id take it on 1000 times out of 10 but I know it doesnt work that way. I know I have to be strong for you. I may look strong on the outside but Im not as strong as you. I am weak but Im praying for strength. Throughout all my trials and tribulations you have been there strong for me. Truth be told without you I would have lost my mind and balance years ago. Thank you moma for a lifetime of loving me. Thank you for always being there. Thanks for all your kindness. I know this isnt the end so I refuse to talk like it. Please please get your strength up. Hold your head up high pretty lady. Your family and friends got this! Please excuse me for being selfish but I love you moma and Im jus not ready to let you go. Cancer, if its a fight you are looking for then its a fight you will receive!!! Round by round we will fight
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 05:47:37 +0000
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