As I was cleaning up the living room floor, picking up things from underneath the coffee table. I come across, pink purse, play nail polish, princess stickers, 1 diaper, two horses, and one earring, plus Im sure theres more under the couch, in the room and in my closet. All belonging to my daughters, only thing thats mine is my junk mail and opened mail. I love being a single father I have to say. I put all there things in one spot and labeled it you left this here, that way when they come back they go over and look at what they left. If they leave movies, itll be over there. I sometimes wish I could be there to watch them grow, but I guess The Lord had other plans for us to grow together as a family, just is three. I miss them everyday second that passes and wonder what they are doing. To be honest, I cant wait till they get phones. All I would wanna do is text and call, text as call. It feels good to a father, never thought id have kids with the life I was living. Coming from hustlin, gettin money anyway I can to almost getting beat to death and walking down a street that looked like something out of a canvas oil painting, houses that looked dead on each side of the street, old houses that were pitch black all the way through the windows, haunted looking, down to a street light that kept flickering. I couldnt see my body, but could feel movement. I had died for a while Im sure but it seemed like forever. After seeing a life like that I thought I was headed nowhere. One thing I kept with me throughout my times was a Bible. That morning I heard a Voice when I wasnt allowed back into the house, he said, what are you going to do?. Very strong and boldly, but with no sound of anger or retaliation in His Voice. So I said, standing there, face swollen, left eye closed shut, thick dried up blood on my face, the taste of blood in my mouth and the smell of it in my nose, Im gonna let you handle it, and walked away. I changed my life from there. Never thought id have kids, two little girls at that!! OMG! I bet The Lord smiles every time I think that. Ive been blessed with these two beautiful girls that hold me down and keep me away from the life I use to live. I am very thankful I do what I can to be near my kids instead of wanting give up and go back to my old ways. I wouldve if I didnt have kids, no doubt. I thought about all this in like a couple of seconds while I was picking up that little pink purse that was left under my coffee table. I love my girls.
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 19:17:19 +0000
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