As most of you know, 2014 (2012-12014) have been (thus far) my most Trying & Challenging of times... Yet, 2012.. I found myself Selfishly questioning Gods Purpose for My Life.. (Which, that alone is Ridiculous in itself.) But, I still seemed to do a lot more Why Mes & Why are YOU Testing me so much, LORD. ~ Begging for Mercy, as the pain in my life just seems to be on and endless stream. (pretty selfish, right!?) ~ As a Faithful Servant, I KNOW BETTER! than to Question HIS Will for My Life, but (I have) allowed Fear of the Unknown (and the devil to Discourage me) and to allow That Emotional Fear (Fill in the Gaps of My Life) that seem so Uncertain. ~ I am NOT Ashamed to Admit, I have Failed, I have Fallen.. I am Broken, I am Afraid of Tomorrow... Etc--- Ive even gotten Angry at God! However; this is because of My LACK of FAITH! - Not GODs! ~ HE knows EXACTLY what HE IS DOING and as I tell So many in my (Gods Stage Group) and some who call me to seek advice, from (one Sinner to the Other) I (We) MUST BE STILL, PATIENT & TRUST HIS PROMISE... The devil wants nothing more than to see Me (Us) Give up.. And Ill be Honest.. at times I almost have. But NO WAY! ~ I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!! ~ I Will NOT let the devil get the best of me-- I gave that To GOD! All said, I wish Nothing of my past 2 years on anyone.. And believe it or Not- theres more yet to come that will be revealed soon.. I Suppose, GOD (Knows) Im much Stronger than I think I am (Praise God for that, right!?) ~ So as Im sitting here in my SELF-PITY trying to plan my next Steps in Life (which seems merely impossible right now.) .. It occurred to me, Thats because GOD is Not Testing My Diligence or Endurance to handle this all at once.. HE is Testing My TRUST & FAITH in HIM and HE is Purposely NOT showing me the Way yet.. But soon HE WILL. ~ So, as I was Wallowing in my Tears & this song came on-- No Joke!! I actually had my CHRISTmas playlist going, but somehow, this song appeared.. WOW!!! ~ this might sound crazy to some~ I Truly Believe This was what God- Needing me to Hear this .. Right then.. In that Moment! ~ No matter what, HE IS WITH ME (us) WITH OPEN ARMS... ~ Anyway, I thought I would share this moment, Thank You for allowing me to share my Journey... I Pray and hope this song reaches another Heart that may be in Pain.. I then Pray you too, find such Comfort in These lyrics, as I did. 🙏 youtu.be/SsgUdVDfaoM
Posted on: Sat, 13 Dec 2014 21:31:41 +0000
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