As this Holiday Season approaches, my heart gets heavier and once again grief sets in. 4 years ago, unknowingly I spent my last Thanksgiving with my son. It was just the 2 of us and we cooked enough food to feed a small army, but we had the most best of time doing it together and teasing each other about whos dish was better - of course in reality - Chris was way far the better cook. We pulled out the Christmas tree and decorations and he helped me decorate while we cooked and ate and made our plans and list of our up coming shopping together for Kirans Christmas! Than he rode out to spend time with some of his friends later that evening! I have so many days and memories but this one always stands out because for some reason it was just an extra special day (I now realize why) and we had the best time together. Even with my heart so heavy and trying to hold back tears as these days approach, Thanksgiving, Chriss Birthday, Chriss Angel date, my birthday and then Christmas - I try to remember how blessed I was to be his mother for the time I had him, the closeness we had together, the memories he has left me with and the grandson he gave me who keeps me going. Ive had a rough road the past 4 years with this and other things but I try to remember there are other people going through the same or worse and always remember to say a little prayer for all. I miss my son terribly and I will never understand why he had to leave.....but I am thankful and blessed that he was my son and I was chosen to be his mother. So during this Holiday Season I am again thankful for what I do have, for a roof over my head, food to eat, a job, ALL the family I have, all my wonderful friends and my beautiful grandson. I pray that we all remember to hug our kids, our families, our friends as we arent promised tomorrow - and to remember to pray for those less fortunate, those in need, the ones we know that may be ill and those that are hurting and to try and be the best and kindest we can be and to lend a hand to someone in need if we can and to remember those that lost loved ones. I wish you all a Happy, Wonderful and Safe Thanksgiving and may you all be blessed!
Posted on: Mon, 25 Nov 2013 03:05:01 +0000