As we enter the last few days of the end of another year I always try to look back and absorb all the knowledge I can from the previous year. 2014 was groundbreaking. I started the year trying to rebuild a broken bridge with rotten wood. Fighting fire with fire the damage just increased. While I was busy rebuilding the rest of my world; the most important part suffered and fell to the way side. When May hit the decision came to pack up my life and leave behind everything and everyone I ever knew...little did I know that what was 5 months real time meant one year Wahweap time. No one but the Wahweap kids will ever understand how time is manipulated there...it ages you, it changes you, it inspires you to grow. I spent almost half of 2014 at Wahweap and it changed my life in the best ways. I built a family; friendship bonds that transcended time and will, I believe, endure the space between. I built a firm employment foundation. Never have I loved a job so much or the people I worked for and with. I grew leaps and bounds professionally. As the summer drew to a close a new world loomed like dark cloud...a world that terrified me but was almost inevitable. I saw the storm in the distance before but I had no idea the severe weather that was stampeding my way. October was the most difficult and most terrifying month of my life. I faced homelessness and unemployment...I faced solitude...I was looking failure in the face and it shook me to my core. I had two options; continue the same behavior that lead me to that position as a boy would, or rise above and grow, beyond any shadow of a doubt, into a man who was worthy of the life I had. I chose the latter and today I stand here extremely happy. My wife and I are more solid than ever, we are happy and in love. A former love, someone who affected my life more than almost anyone else...someone who is a literal keystone in the arch that is my life has come back in...and she is slowly teaching me that people make mistakes and that trust can be earned back. She reminds me of a different time and I love that. I have these three cool little kids that magically appeared in my world and whom I ADORE. Being their friend is worth more than words can express. This year was truly a year of extensive growth...I learned many things about myself and even more about the world around me. I met people I will cherish for the rest of my life...had experiences I will never forget, and found a sort of happiness and balance that could have never been granted to me had circumstances not been exactly as they are. For all the pain, the lies, the bull shit, the fun, the work, the parties, the people, and the love...every second of this year was worth it and though I had to fight at times to not lose my way; I made it. I set one major goal this year...to win her back...30 days...no one thought it was possible...everything is possible. Love deeper, fall harder, and trust with every fiber of your being...because in my experience even the road to pain is worth taking that hit. Happy new year, facebook. May 2015 be your greatest year.
Posted on: Sat, 27 Dec 2014 20:51:30 +0000