Based on a suggestion from my sponsor, he said I should go back through my journal and see my growth since Im approaching a year. Well this blog is my journal. So last night I took some time going back and re-reading my posts. I can see the evolution of myself in doing so. WOW. Ill admit the first month of this page was rather... BLAH. It wasnt until I actually started taking it serious and writing about what I was feeling, thinking and being brutally honest that I started to grow. It also gave me a better insight into what was happening to me at the time. My memory of it was clouded. I went back and read and I see clearly how I had misjudged situations and others based on what I wanted, not the truth of it. I also developed a better appreciation for just how much Ive changed in that time. Then today I went to lunch with a friend and a couple of his coworkers. We got to telling stories and wow... that just opened my eyes even more as to what a different person I am today than I was a year ago at this time. We can change. We dont always see it, but we can. Ive talked about changes in my over the year, but I never realized just how dramatically Ive changed. Yet to fully understand the difference in me... is WOW. If it wasnt for the fact that I remember making those posts and the incidents that led up to them, Id swear someone else wrote them. Others have told me they see a big change in me, a lot of growth. I just didnt see it. Now I do. Day 327 sober.
Posted on: Fri, 23 Jan 2015 04:39:05 +0000