Being told, in the depths of my depression, panic attacks and PTSD that I brought all of this upon myself. Every lie, Every infidelity, every emotional manipulation. Still Haunting me to this day. Its been almost three months but Im still trying to sort out if it is my fault or if I was just used. I should know it wasnt, but I cannot help but internalize and take the blame. When he lashed out at me because I was hurting from my losses and just wanted a warm hug and someone to hold my hand. Him pulling back, saying it was irrational to still carry my grief when i was never allowed to fully express it. Being told by family and friends he said I had threatened to hurt him, All of it lies. Psychiatrist even said I would never harm anyone but myself. Losing friends over this. I hate what his lies and ego did to me, to my friendships and my life. But I am moving forward.
Posted on: Mon, 04 Aug 2014 16:03:53 +0000
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